Dear Husband? How are you? Why do I sense… tension?
There’s no tension… I’m a little… deflated?
Why?
Sigh. Why bother with anything? BTS is back anyway. I wanna get cancelled and come home to you. I wanna book my flight right now. Today.
Darling if you flew back today you’ll have to come with me to the hospital because your mother-in-law is getting two scheduled procedures this week and next month and she won’t be fully recovered until June…
Oh?
Do you really wanna be by my side for all that?
OF COURSE.
Oh? Okay then? Come home? But we won’t have romantic date nights. We’ll have worrying hospital parking. Hospital receptionists, luck of the draw sometimes they’re nice sometimes they’re bitchy. I don’t think you’ll even be allowed into the room, I don’t think she will want you to see her so you’ll have to wait quietly in the hallway.
ARE YOU OKAY WITH THAT?
Yes……? Why wouldn’t I be?
I dunno it’s just really not glamorous. It’s really not entertaining. It’s just… the “down” times of life. It’s stressful having a family member go to hospital for procedures. There’s a lot of stress.
I wanna be there babe. That’s what marriage is about.
I thought you wanted to get married so you could make love to me any time you want, not be a supportive husband with family problems?
What are you talking about?! 😅 Marriage is ALL of that! Of course we’re not in the mood to make love when your Mum’s in hospital… that’s okay. I’m not addicted to making love to you. Of course I’m just being cheeky about stuff like that. I can be serious and supportive when you really need it from me 🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Awwwwwwww… okay well… if you’re genuinely sick of your career…
I don’t think I will have a choice for much longer anyway.
Why?
We’re not renewing our contract. Company already told us, they just haven’t told the fans.
Whaaaaaaat?!
Lol 😏
Okay anyway.
Yes babe?
I dunno… we can’t keep having conversations back and forth about you quitting.
Why not?
Because… why can’t you establish yourself as an artist? I don’t see why not.
Mmmmm? 🤔
I think you are even MORE talented than BTS, in brutal honesty. They have a formula, but if we’re speaking raw talent, YOU are MORE TALENTED and I’m not even just saying that because I’m your WIFE!
Awwwwwwww… baby… 😅😅😅🥰🥰🥰🥰😘😘😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️❤️🤗🤗🤗🙄🤗💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
I just think you can fly home and build a home music studio and you can work from home. Only fly out for a small tour or residency like Harry Styles every once in a while.
(Chuckles) 😍❤️ that’s a good goal to aim for.
You didn’t have a good goal before?
Well….. I watched the BTS concert and I just felt like, I can’t be bothered trying to climb that mountain. The bros were comparing and discussing and I just disassociated from that whole conversation. I was really quiet and they were like “Dude are you okay?” And I just shrugged my shoulders I said “I don’t give a fuck. I miss my wife.” And they all rolled their eyes and continued discussing amongst themselves.
Are they gonna kick you out of the group if you keep up that attitude?!?!?!!
I don’t care! 🤣 LOL
Babe…… (pat pat pat) 👋👋👋💕💕💕💕💕
It’s okay it wasn’t that bad. We all have those moments from time to time.
Who? Your bros?
Yeah. Sometimes when someone is quiet and missing their wife or girlfriend we just give them space. They come back around in a few days. It’s just me today… 🫠
Lol… it’s your hormonal cycle.
LOL WHAT?!!?
Guys have a hormonal cycle too. It’s just more subtle than women’s. You can’t be in your happy high energetic phase ALL the time.
😳😳😳 (feeling a little stunned) we’ve never talked about this before babe?
It’s really random I know. And perhaps the science has since evolved too. But last I remember… guys have a hormonal cycle too… maybe we should ask AI?
Hahhaahahahahaha… first of all, I just don’t understand the details.
Testosterone fluctuates too! It’s not like you’ve got the same levels of testosterone every fucking day?!
Ohhhhhhh… I never thought about that! 😅
Of course not. People don’t talk about it. Hang on lemme ask AI 🤓
Men’s moods shift mainly because of daily hormone rhythms, not monthly cycles. Testosterone peaks in the morning, boosting confidence, motivation, and energy, then declines through the day, which can lower patience and drive. Cortisol, the stress hormone, also peaks early to wake the body, then falls; when it stays high from stress or poor sleep, it can cause irritability, tension, and low mood. Together, these rhythms create natural fluctuations in focus, libido, and emotional tolerance. Lifestyle factors—sleep, stress, nutrition, and exercise—amplify or soften these hormonal effects.
Frequent travel and irregular sleep disrupt men’s natural hormone rhythms, especially testosterone and cortisol. Testosterone is produced during deep sleep, so short or broken sleep lowers next‑day levels, reducing motivation, patience, and emotional steadiness. At the same time, travel stress, airports, time‑zone shifts, and inconsistent light exposure keep cortisol elevated when it should fall, creating irritability, tension, and a “wired but tired” feeling. When testosterone drops and cortisol stays high, men experience mood swings, low tolerance, brain fog, and emotional flatness. Constant travel prevents these rhythms from resetting, leaving them in a persistent state of imbalance.
Does that make sense babe?
Lol yeahhhhh? 😅😅😅
Get some sleep my love. You need to regulate your sleep better.
Sigh… that’s not possible with this job…
Okay then come home. Sleep next to me.
I WANT TO 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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