Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Babe we’ve had our awkward Silence moment in the past.

U remember?

I’m trying to…

I remember it was awkward…

I remember you seemed… depressed…

But I can’t remember why or when this happened exactly…

Was it 2009? 2011? Somewhere around there?!?!?!

It was later than that.

Was it?!?!

Around 2013…

Oh?

What happened?

How did we bump into each other?

U were suddenly back in Melbourne.

I was…?

U were with your cousin?

Was I…?!?!?!

But that cousin didn’t join you for our meet up. You just said you were back in Melbourne with the cousin.

Ummmmm… I’m really trying to remember… 😅

I had auditioned for Australian idol but never made it through…

You did?!?!??!!

Yes and I had tried a lot of random things but nothing worked out. I felt like a failure.

I don’t remember this very well…

It was awkward… but then you said something funny to lighten the mood.

I don’t remember doing that. I remember feeling the awkwardness.

Why did you have that expression on your face?

I missed you the whole time but I couldn’t say it.

And you seemed to be thriving without me.

It felt like, we did the right thing, breaking up. You’re living your best life…

I wasn’t really though. It was all bravado.

Was it? Lol…

You completely friend zoned me.

At the time. Yes.

I wasn’t ready for anything.

I don’t remember much else from that encounter.

You talked more than me.

Did I?!?!?!

How come I don’t remember what I said?!

Older brother was there too and he asked about who you were dating.

Who was I dating?!

I don’t remember?!?!?!?!

Some random guys… you went thru all your random encounters… during those years…

I DON’T REMEMBER TALKING ABOUT THIS?!?!?!

I was getting very annoyed and jealous with all your stories until older brother asked, “what do you want? Who is your ideal type?!?!”

What did I say?

You said you wanted a guy with LOTS OF MONEY and a shoulder to lean on…

Did I?! 🤔 I don’t remember thinking like that in 2013…

Well that was my takeaway from the conversation. Maybe it was like he asked “well what matters most? Money?” And you wiggled your way around it but my take away was of course money matters.

Lol… 😅😅😅 did we really need to have a catch up in person for you to realise of course money matters…?

No. We didn’t. But it solidified it for me. It became my driving force.

How?

Because catching up in person made me remember even more how much my body physically aches for yours.

You don’t know the torture I feel when you’re physically near me and I can’t even hug or kiss you!!!

So you turned that into awkward frowning??!!?!!??

It was an inner struggle…

It showed on the outside too love… 😅😅😅

I had a different expression whenever you turned away.

What expression?

Longing.

Lol what…

Determination.

(Giggles) 🤭💕

You didn’t know it at the time. But I vowed to make you my wife that day.

(Giggles Giggles Giggles) 🤭🥰💕

I didn’t know how I was going to do it. But I just knew that was all I wanted.

Awwwwwwww 🤗🤗🤗😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I was hiding my love… trying to hide it…

I vaguely remember a mutual friend once telling me, “You should see the way he looks at you when you’re not looking…” and honestly I don’t even remember which friend told me that.

😏… I guess I made it very obvious in front of them. I wasn’t even aware of it at the time.

Why did you push me away when I was looking?!

I wasn’t ready.

I didn’t feel… worthy…

Awwwwww babe… you’re so worthy now…

I know.

I came back to find you when I knew it. When I felt it.

It doesn’t matter whatever other awards I’ve won since.

When I came back, I did finally feel that it was the right time to really pursue this.

(Giggles) 🤭💕