Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Bb how r u?!

Not great… I’ve been up since 6 am… feeding doggy, mopping the floor cos he peed outside of his usual pee pads…

Oh… u already work so hard at work, now ur working hard at home.

Exactly. That’s how I feel too. It doesn’t really stop.

I’m actually on cruise control at work. Yes I’m physically tired at the end of the shift but I’m not as mentally drained…

Doggy is draining ur mental energy?

I know that I need to make an appointment with the vet soon… and I’m dreading it… so yes. There is a lot of mental energy happening…

Have u ever had to be the person to decide when to put down the dog?

No…

Neither have I.

I know it’s not time yet…

But I’m really dreading that day…

I know that it’s probably coming though…

Many families go thru it babe.

But how did you lose your childhood dogs?

It wasn’t my decision it was my parents.

Right…

This is gonna be a sad phase…

Well… it’s already a very long and drawn out phase of frustrations…

He really needs a doggy nursing home. We’re not the best family for that?

There’s just piss everywhere. All the time now. I’m also worried if Mum doesn’t see the puddles of pee one day and accidentally slips on it. I already have.

It’s getting dangerous for the humans too?!

Hmmm… maybe u do need a conversation with the vet…

But he still greets me when I come home from work. Some days. Just like aging humans he seems to have his good days and his off days…

Awwwwww…

Yeah… anyway… I’ve ordered a calming collar for him. Fingers crossed…

And… well… I just keep cleaning up poos and pees. It won’t stop until he’s done… u know what I mean. This is what I signed up for.

He did that too as a puppy.

I didn’t have him as a puppy. Someone else had him as a puppy. Then they gave him away to me.

Wow…

We also suspect they abused him cos he’s had so many other problems…

Hmmmmmm…

Anyway enough of ranting about the dog.

Yes love.

I kept getting ads for an “Adhd cleaning diary” and I ordered one.

Oh?

It’s like a check list.

That’s good?

Yeah. I don’t have ADHD but it looks really practical. It’ll be good to stick to it. At least have a list of tasks to tick off.

I would feel so relieved to hear that ur tackling the cleaning tasks of ur parents house with ease. I really want that for u babe.

Thanks darling. I want that too.

I feel like I’m in this chapter of my life for a reason I guess. And I still haven’t passed these tests.

It seems so obvious for others?! But it’s been hard for me.

Nobody would guess it too. U don’t seem like u struggle with any of this when ur at work.

It must be the adrenalin.

I guess I am fuelled by stress hormones at work and I seem really alert and efficient. But that’s when I crash when I come home. I’m spent. I’m out of fuel. I can’t do anything else…

I wish I could live like at a hotel…

That’s what your life with me will be 😘❤️

So we’ll hire a cleaner?

Of course!

And what about pets?

We don’t have to have any if you don’t want one…

I wanna try guinea pigs…

Lol okay 🥰💕

The dog has been the biggest final boss challenge of my life so far.

Well it’s like a toddler…

Ugh… yeah…

What’s he doing now?

Sleeping. He ate. Peed. Drank water. Now he’s back to sleeping peacefully…

Lolololol 😅

I miss you…

I miss you too ❤️