Babe. How r u?
I didn’t sleep well at all.
I know. I could tell.
I tried a new brand of iced tea yesterday… I didn’t think it would affect my sleep?
It’s probably not that.
Yeah… probably not…
Was there much caffeine in it?
They didn’t even print caffeine in the nutritional label.
Then maybe there wasn’t caffeine?
But it was tea?
Maybe it was tea flavouring. It wasn’t really tea? Or there just wasn’t enough levels of caffeine to add to the nutritional label?
Maybe…
So that’s not the reason for not sleeping well.
No. There were multiple reasons. Mother, dog, and my own body’s hormones are the three main reasons.
Mother, again?
She doesn’t sleep well and I can hear her going up and down the stairs in the middle of the night. Dog also seems to have doggy dementia or something and randomly barks at odd hours. And my own body is adjusting…?! Gearing into perimenopause…?!
U really think it’s perimenopause?
Well… it’s the phase before full blown menopause… yeah…? I’m at that age…?
I don’t think so.
You’re in denial about me.
No I’m not!
Darling we have to accept that we are aging.
I know! But I don’t think you’re in perimenopause?!
Okay then I’m in Peri-Peri-menopause?!
Hmmm… 🤔…
I just don’t know if we will make any babies naturally. Or at all. Your success keeps growing. Your company isn’t about to drop you. When will we have time to make a baby? My eggs are all dried up by the time you truly step away from the limelight…
It’s okay 😏
It is?
Yeah. I don’t need us to have kids. I really really don’t mind if we don’t.
Hmmmmm…
Is it bothering you? Do you want to find a guy to have kids with?
No 😅
I don’t care about it like that either.
I guess I’ve been wondering, Does the Universe WANT ME to have kids?!
Why would it be something The Universe “wants” — ?!
If I say God instead of Universe, does that make more sense?
You’re wondering when God wants you to have kids?
Does God want you to have kids?
Does God want us to have kids?
Does God want us to be married?!?!?!
It’s not about what the fans want, it’s about what GOD wants.
Oh… … I have to think about this…
As much as I moan and whinge about living with my mother and this senior dog…
God wants me to stay with them?
God wants me to help them?
God wants me to be there for them through these later years of their lives?
And even though a part of me feels sorry for myself because this is also taking up chapters of my life — God wants me to learn these lessons?
I have to be there for them… because God wants me to?
Hmmmmm… I don’t know about putting it all on what “God” wants… 🤔…
What else is there to do but to surrender to what God wants?
God wanted you to find me.
God wanted you to reach out to me again.
God wanted me to remember you.
Ohhhhh… that part… I have to agree with… 😍
Right?! Because it’s our love and it makes sense and it’s been wonderful.
God made it very, very clear to me that you are my Soul Mate. I couldn’t let you go.
Awwwwwwwww… 🥹❤️
We rarely have these kinds of conversations…
Do you want more of them in 2026?
I don’t mind. Only if you want to.
Even though I’m saying God to you — and for readers — it is more colloquially acceptable and understood, right? But my own understanding and grasp of it is still as The Universe… not the Christian God entity…
Lol… it’s okay babe. I know what you mean. It doesn’t matter to me 😏💕 I think we’re talking about the same thing.
I still don’t want to go to Church if we get married.
U don’t want to get married in a Church?
Ughhhhhhhh……. 😣😣😣
I won’t force you. It’s okay.
Are you… really Catholic…?
Yes.
But we’ve made love… before marriage…
Lolololol… 🥰🥰🥰 I married you already. In my heart ❤️
THAT’S CRAZY.
PEOPLE WILL BE LIKE “OH HE ONLY MARRIED HER BECAUSE HE’S CATHOLIC AND SHE’S THE FIRST WOMAN HE’S EVER HAD SEX WITH!!!” BLA BLA BLA BLA
I don’t care what they think or say. It’s what I want. I want us. I want you. It doesn’t matter if there’s a piece of paper saying we’re married or not. We are.
But some people might say, you don’t really know what love is. You’re just brainwashed by religious doctrine…
I don’t care about what they have to say 😘❤️
Oh… I need some time to process…
(Hugs hugs hugs) 🤗🤗🤗 I love you so much 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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