Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Babe…

Yes my love? Did u sleep well?

No my mother is being very loud in the kitchen and I got woken up. I’m fucking pissed off but just living with it…

Oh no… 😅

It’s okay.

I had some other thoughts.

About what?

There used to be a song that I associated with the other ex…

And all of a sudden, I’ve gone mind blank. I don’t remember. The song isn’t even that important now.

It’s been replaced with all your songs in my brain.

I’m remembering your songs… I don’t know what song used to be the song with that ex. If it came on the radio I would simply enjoy it as a random piece of music.

Oh… interesting…

I don’t feel anything about him.

I remember those scenes like in a movie. But I don’t feel any emotional attachment to them.

I don’t relate to the person who lived then. Who was she? She didn’t really know what she was doing. And she most certainly didn’t know what love was supposed to be.

Lol… I feel like the K-dramas have affected you… quite deeply…

Would you have had an affair with me if I was a married woman? If I married someone else — mistakenly — would you have crossed the line with me?

Yes.

Mmmm…

Would you?

😏… do I have to answer on here?

No babe. You don’t. I do know your answer. Deep down.

Mmmmmm…

Depending on other circumstances.

Maybe I would have met up with you and lamented about my awful marriage to whoever it was.

Maybe you would’ve convinced me to leave him.

And then maybe we would date after I left him. Nice and clean and honourable.

Uhuh… or… we could get drunk and just do it…

(Giggles) 🤭🤭🤭💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

But what if that husband had a bad temper?

Okay then. I wouldn’t put you in danger. I would be your shoulder to lean on until you divorced him. For sure.

😌… thankfully that’s never happened to us… I don’t have that kind of baggage.

Also do you have kids with this hypothetical husband?!

Ahhhh… that changes things too?

It complicates things…

Yeah. It really does.

IF I had kids — I would tell you that I’m divorcing my husband and giving him full custody of the kids.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA… 🤣 ur only saying that because you’ve never lived it and you’re just making stuff up for the blog!

True. See is it that obvious? Because I haven’t lived it it’s easy to say whatever about it. The same thing shows up in your music if you haven’t lived it.

Yeah… I get what u mean…

I kept praying for u to stay single.

I kept praying that u never married, let alone have kids with someone else.

I’m so thankful we have that.

Yeahhhhhhhhh…

Do you think about one of the pitiful acquaintances?

Who?

The pitiful acquaintance who never moved on after his ex-girlfriend went back to Russia, got married and had kids…

Was it an arranged marriage?

I don’t even know her well enough to know. The other rumour was that she was a spy.

HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA… 🤣🤣🤣

And what if she was?

Did the pitiful acquaintance ever get over her?

I don’t know… I don’t keep in touch with him either.

I thought he had an affair with another married friend at one stage.

WHAT?!

Yeah it was kinda suss… they were being weird at another friend’s wedding…

Why would he have done that tho?

I dunno? Boredom?

What about the married woman?

Definitely boredom. She doesn’t know what love is, she only ever had marriage for money in her sights. I’m not sure if she even likes her own kids?! She has plenty of nannies to help her cope with them.

Hmmmm… but why are u thinking about them?

There was once… I got drunk… and I put my hand on his thigh…

WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!!

Hahahahhahahabahaa….

Why did you do that?

It’s a combination of things that I’m not proud of.

One memory was. A long, long, long time ago… pitiful acquaintance actually asked me to dance when we were all out clubbing.

?!?!?!?! Nobody has ever mentioned that…

Nobody else witnessed it. He was so low key about it. But I did reject him. In that moment, I didn’t find him attractive and I didn’t want to dance with him.

Right…

Then in later years… we still kept in touch. As polite acquaintances of course. But once, just once, he said something to me that triggered a wondering.

What wondering?

I don’t know if he meant it the way I heard it.

But I thought — without quoting any exact words — I thought he meant, “Would you ever consider me?”

And that left me going home and really thinking about it — WOULD I?!?!?!

And I was thinking about it and thinking about it a lot. Until I kinda psyched myself into it — should I consider him?!

What did he SAY?!

I DON’T REMEMBER.

I don’t have a tape or video recorder. He never texted or wrote it down anywhere.

I only remember that’s how it FELT.

Maybe it wasn’t his intention but THAT’S HOW I TOOK IT.

Ahhh… so then you got drunk and put your hand on his lap.

Something like that.

Ahahahahhahaha… 😅😅😅

Is that enough for today?

That’s plenty babe 😘❤️