Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

So babe…

Yes my love?

The new assignments in my life are stuff around the house that needs to be fixed. There’s no urgent deadline but it’s just grating on my psyche every time I walk past or have to interact with it.

It’s still draining my mental energy. I try to write it down as a reminder, “call a plumber” etc. Bla bla bla.

But it’s also about saving up the money to fix it. Calling and getting quotes. Then booking one day when I’m not actually working…

Right…

It doesn’t sound like much when I write it out but it still feels like a really big mental drain.

Maybe I am autistic? Neurodivergent? It just feels hard… I don’t like it…

Doesn’t your Dad help with any of this?

No.

Let’s say in this fictional narrative my parents are divorced and he has another family in Taiwan. It just makes it easier for all the readers to understand.

They’re divorced. Okay?

I’m 40 years old. Live with my mother in this old house. So it’s only up to us and we have limited funds to fix up whatever needs to be fixed up.

Do I often feel sorry for myself about this situation? Yes.

Before you even appeared back in my life I was feeling so hopeless I was numb.

When you came incognito and your friend said you were a big celebrity I was like, “what does this have to do with me?! Why should I give a fuck?!”

Lol… 😏💕

So… yeah…

What needs to be done?

I need a plumber to fix the shower.

What’s wrong with it?

I think the tap is leaking…

Oh. That’s not good?

Yeah and I think the moisture is causing mold… so I’ve been showering in mold… I’m wondering if that’s why I’m so tired all the time, my immune system is trying to fight the mold in my environment?!

Is that how it works?

I don’t know…

Then call a plumber!

I don’t need to call one urgently today.

I’ll wait until my next pay day… it’s gonna cost like $400 to fix or something. I have a feeling about it…

After it’s fixed hopefully the mold doesn’t grow back every time after I clean it.

Or the shower is just too old? You need a fully new one.

That would be ideal too my love. If only I had your credit card…

Mmmmm… I wanna help. I’m just thinking through how…

And then… I need to change the bathroom curtain.

Why don’t you have bathroom blinds?

I don’t know. But there is a curtain rod to change curtains.

I guess the bathroom is the most “urgent” for the start of the year. It is the most plaguing on my mind. And I have to go in there every day.

Darling I had no idea you had such a stressful trigger.

Constantly? On a daily basis?

Yeah… it’s just a mental procrastination…

I’ve gotten used to the mess but I don’t enjoy it…

There’s also a beauty fridge that needs to be thrown out. It’s broken. It’s not plugged in. There’s probably a dead cockroach underneath that I’m also avoiding facing…

You know how… you said your place wasn’t as bad as Asmongold’s… 😅

Lol is it starting to sound like Asmongold’s?!

A little bit my love… I’m worried for you… 😅😅😅

Hahaahahahhahaa… well yeah okay maybe it is as bad as his place then.

But my goal in 2026 is to get it fixed up. This is the year of fixing up all these things.

Before I can even begin to think of setting up a streaming room upstairs with everything else….

Oh there’s a room upstairs you can turn into a streaming room?

Right now it is filled with Mum’s shit. I’ve talked to her about this. She said “just tell me when you want to use the room, I’ll clean all that out”

And I said fine it’s not urgent right now cos I don’t have the mental or physical energy to get to that room right now — but eventually it will be cleared out and it is a pretty decent space for a streaming set up.

Oooh… I wanna see 😍

Well… I don’t know when it would be ready… but let’s aim for 2026. It is one of the big assignments of this year.

So basically you wanna fix up everything then in 2027 you have a smoother year.

Hopefully?! That is the goal?!

People ask me if I’m happy and I don’t know how to explain living with mold constantly growing back in the shower just grates on my happiness like you cannot imagine.

It even starts to feel like a curse.

I genuinely wonder if I’m neurodivergent, why is this so hard for me to address this one cleaning issue?

It wasn’t like this when you rented the apartment in Brisbane?!

That building was all new!

But it did have plumbing problems too from previous tenants. I guess I was earning much more money. I had paid a big invoice immediately for that plumbing issue. It got dealt with in one day.

I don’t know babe… it’s just another drudgery…

It’s my main hurdles to happiness this year.

If I was a Sims character, you know how they have thought bubbles 💭 of what they’re worrying about? This is what I’m constantly worrying about.

Okay actually there is a deadline. Okay I’m gonna set it. I want this bathroom refreshed by Chinese New Year.

Ahhh… there it is…

Yes.

New curtain. Shower plumbing fixed. Mold gone. New bath mat. Everything. Scrub, scrub, scrub.

If the bathroom is finally re-done before Chinese new year then I can happily believe it will be a better new horse year.

This bathroom has been a big wound in snake year…?

Yes.

You barely mentioned it until now?!

Because every other thing in snake year seemed more urgent?!

Assignments, quizzes, classes, work… my mother, my dog…

Other emergency plumbing problems around the house!

I’m trying to wrap my head around this babe.

You say it’s an old house.

So basically… the house has needed these revamps anyway. To give another 5, 10, 15 years?

Something like that. It’s just maintenance. 

It kind of reminds me of when I lived in Melbourne… and there would always be random historical building under scaffolding and construction barriers — like they just need to constantly renovate them and upgrade them.

Yes…

Those are like rooms or areas in your house?

Yes… … …

I see…

THIS IS WHY I DON’T WANT US TO OWN AN OLD HOUSE.

I’M LITERALLY TRAUMATISED FROM THIS ONE.

Ahhahhahahaha… 😅😅😅

Did u have a good sleep?

U woke up and this has been the number one thing on ur mind?

I dreamt of this house and the things I needed to fix.

Ahhh I see…

Okay I need to eat breakfast.

Yes love. Go eat.

Ur not judging me for my moldy shower?

No… … …

I’ve put up with worse. Living with 16 other guys…

Oh…?! 😳 I’m scared to think about it…

It was like living with 16 Asmongolds…

NO WAY…

Lol… 😅😅😅

Doesn’t the company send you cleaners?!

Lol you’d be surprised how little the company pays for.

Hotels are nice when we’re on tour but our usual living arrangements, we don’t have cleaners. We’re supposed to just clean it ourselves.

Oh… … …

We’re not gonna show any of it on camera, it’s too disgusting!

Well I’m never going to post about my shower on instagram story either. I also think it is too disgusting!

So those are the pockets of real life. That never gets on social media.

Mmmmmm… I was afraid that u’ll be turned off… because I have a moldy shower…

Hahahahhaha… 🤣🤣🤣

It is OUR moldy shower.

We are MARRIED.

We’ll fix this shower together 😘❤️

Darling you say that and yet you don’t give me your credit card to hire someone else to do it!

Lol… 😅😅😅

Right now, I’m here for you emotionally about this shower.

Okay…. great… thanks… 🫠💕