How r u my love?
I’m sleepy but I’m nervous…
Nervous?
Nervous excited?
Your presentation…
I’m trying not to overthink it. I really just want to get it over with it.
Oh… have u rehearsed ur script?
Let’s talk about something else…
Lol why? Have u rehearsed?
I’ll tell u later… or not…
Tell me now!
No. I don’t have a script and I haven’t rehearsed. I just want to pass. I didn’t put in my usual efforts. It’s not like the other job I had. Far from it.
The job where u had scripts…
I once had 70 pages to memorise…
LOL…
Do u see how I burnt out from that?! This is barely scratching the surface compared to that. I really feel like I have nothing to prove to anymore.
In recent Kardashians episode when Kim was like “if the dress doesn’t fit I’m not going” (to the Met) I totally get that feeling cos that’s how I feel now. If I don’t even pass this final hurdle, I’m not re-enrolling babe… I’m not going to keep trying to climb this mountain.
In fact I want to come down now. I don’t want to be anywhere near this summit. This isn’t my mountain. I’m not into it.
That’s the biggest lesson u learned…
Lol yeah but I’m not gonna say that… out loud?! To the people in the industry?
Lol…
I should get up soon… I’m not even hungry. Just going thru the motions… I want it to be over and I wanna over-indulge in thoughts of us. I wana get back to our LOVE POETRY…
😍 awww… I’ve been writing those for the both of us…
I know and I wanna start writing them again too!
Sigh.
I just need some coffee.
I’ll remember the manatee spirit animal. That’s what got me thru last week. I’ll have to try to keep that up this week.
Lol… manatees…
They’re such soft, gentle creatures… 🦭❤️
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