Babe, did u know… when I was in high school choir there were days when it was tough. I wanted to quit. I had moments of wanting to quit. And my Dad would say, “okay then quit.” But my Mum would say, “no! Don’t quit!”
Lol…
I had both options.
Did u quit?
No. But I also don’t look back on it fondly. I look at it like I was in a cage.
I tried to explain that to my mother with our conversation last night.
All these industries where I feel like a bird in a cage — I can’t do it. I’m 40 now. I can’t squeeze or force anything else out of me. I just can’t endure it.
I need work that allows me to feel like a bird flying.
Do u feel that way with ur current job?
I feel more that way than any of the current studies.
And of course I feel this way about writing.
I see…
I’m having these cortisol spikes throughout the night from stress. That’s why I’m writing again.
Mmmmm…
Lavender oil helped a little bit…
Did u fall asleep?
A little bit… for a couple of hours?
Keep sleeping!
I’ll try……
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