Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Babe… I had a very honest conversation with my mother tonight.

What about?

How much I hate this… what I am currently studying… I don’t want to work in this industry… 😭😭😭

Awww my love… what did she say?

She saw me CRYING.

I really blurted it out to the point of TEARS.

I said my heart can take the stress with the work in fashion. I can’t take it in this other industry. I’ve really gone to a whole other extreme.

She finally acknowledged, “You are not like your brother…”

NO I AM NOT. WE ALL KNOW THAT NOW. I AM NOT LIKE HIM.

Ummm… was this what u were trying to prove?

Not exactly. It was just an attempt.

And what now?

I tried to explain to her. I don’t get bored with clothes. I know it’s hard to comprehend. For some people. And it’s not like I’m delirious in dopamine with the fashion retail. But it’s something I can endure.

And u can’t endure it with this other… coursework…

I don’t want to.

I’m learning what I don’t want.

I don’t want to do it.

Sigh…

R u feeling this way about what u do?

Mmmm… I sway in those thoughts from time to time… it’s happened more this year while I’m missing you… I was more motivated when u didn’t remember me… 😅

LOL…

I was trying to explain to Mum. Like chocolate for example. When I worked in a chocolate cafe. EVERYONE would exclaim “oh what a fun job! U get to work with CHOCOLATE! WHO WOULDN’T WANT THAT?!”

But my “chocolate” — my REAL “chocolate” — is FASHION.

Hahahhahaha…

She started to understand. She was like “oh that’s like me with flower arranging…” — YES!!!

It took her this long to understand!!!

What about singing?!

Singing is a HOBBY.

I don’t want to do it as a job.

It’s on the other end of the spectrum.

It goes…

Singing…

Food…

FASHION — IN BETWEEN HOBBY AND MONEY

Natural health…

Computers…

Does that make sense?

Yeah… it’s visually a bit hard to follow but I think I get what you mean…

Oh I got an AI image… LOLOLOL…

I shared it with friends on my Instagram 🤪