Babe…
Yes?
What do u mean u got rid of it?
The spider got onto the dustpan and I opened the door and mum walked out with the dustpan and flung the spider into the garden.
U didn’t kill it?!?!
No. Could not. That’s part of my screams. I was struggling — what do I do?! — I really struggled with those choices.
My heart could not bear it.
The wailing. Whimpering. I don’t know what other kind of sounds I made. Woke up Mum and she was extremely concerned. Then in my terror filled explanations and trying to get her to put on her glasses to SEE what I am talking about.
Aww… hehehehe… 😅😅😅
I’m still…
Trying to wind down, I know…
Why do we have to endure this? Why me and Mum?
A lot of people get faced with spiders my love…
I have a very distinctive memory from my childhood.
I think I was 9 years old?
And a spider appeared in my room as well.
I killed it. I remember killing it.
Oh…
It was about the size of a 20 cent coin?
Uhuh…
There was one summer. Me and older brother. It was so huge. A really huge spider. He sprayed and sprayed at it. It seemed to be able to hold its breath?!?!
Oh… 😅😅😅
Everybody has spider stories.
I can’t…
At least you saved this one tonight.
I didn’t save it. Mum saved it.
If she hadn’t been here.
I don’t know if I would’ve eventually got the spray as well.
Oh…
I do want to book pest control again tho it hasn’t been 12 months since the last one.
The spider appeared tho?!
Right… so maybe it has worn off already…
Lol… 😅
Anyway… another thing on the to-do list… probably getting postponed for a while…
Sigh…
What do u believe about these things spiritually babe?
Ummm… I think u don’t have to feel guilty for killing spiders but if u wanted to save one that’s fine as well…
I woke up from a panic attack. Before I saw that spider.
I woke up from a sudden fear of dying. Have u ever had that feeling?
Yes…….? Sometimes….? Randomly…?
The sensation was too recent when I saw the spider. I could not bring myself to immediately grab the spray.
I just kinda, sensed?! Thought?! What if this spider is also having a panic attack it is fearful of dying?
Oh……..
I couldn’t do that to this little creature tonight.
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