Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

My love… (stroking his hair while he lays his head on her breasts)…

Mmmmm?

This month is a testing month…

What tests?

I dunno, like Karmic tests…

What sort of karmic tests?

I don’t know exactly either… but… I feel like we are being tested… almost every day, don’t you think? Everything is feeling really hard… there’s hoops and hurdles… random stuff the Universe keeps throwing at us…

I… can’t even relax if I don’t get a morsel of you to keep me going…

Yeah…

I’m finding it hard to truly wind down tonight as well…

What’s wrong?

I don’t know how to write about it…

Metaphors?

Mmmm… the metaphor is… the Universe keeps giving me more tests… when clearly, I said I was TIRED… I NEED A BREATHER…

Oops… 😅😅😅 (kiss kiss cuddle cuddle) 💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋

There is an intensity this month. Do you feel it?

Yes.

But I also feel like… there’s something else bothering u … and ur just choosing not to write about it…

It’s not worth mentioning, it’s nothing I can control anyway…

Hmmm…

I forgot where my Bluetooth headband went…

Noisy neighbours?

Yeah…

…

Oh. I found it. I just need to charge it.

By the time it’s charged u’ve probably already fallen asleep… 😅

Why does the Universe keep testing me?

What are these tests?

I don’t know how to put it into words yet.

Can u please find a way to let me know…? 🥺

I don’t know… I have K-pop Demon Hunters 🎵 This is what it sounds like…

In my head right now.

This is what ur going thru?!

No?!! I don’t know?!?!!

Just say what you wanna say.

I don’t accept that this is my karma.

I don’t understand why I have to be the person suffering this right now.

It doesn’t make sense to me.

What suffering?! Our long distance?!?!

No.

It’s not you.

You’re not triggering me.

My mother…

Oh… your Mother is testing you…

Constantly.

It doesn’t stop.

I can’t RELAX in my own HOME when she is AROUND?!?!?!

Why do “I” have to suffer this?

Why are we STILL “stuck” with each other as mother and daughter?!?!!

Ur sick of her…

Yes.

I need space.

I need a reprieve. 

I need a miracle with my mother.

For my mother.

She needs to be receptive to the miracle herself.

She needs to spiritually be willing to be helped.

There is a lot of murky energy.

Who is cursing us??!!!

Because we seem to be constantly be getting these spiritual attacks?!

What kind of spiritual attacks?!

It appears as symptoms. Physical symptoms. Problems around the house.

We have to call a handyman. We have to get this or that contractor. There’s lots and lots of shit to get done around this house.

Hmmmmm…

I don’t know who is cursing us.

U think it’s an actual curse?

Maybe…

Do you sense anything?

No babe… I don’t sense that you or your mother are cursed…

But we are also… not blessed…

Well…?

You’re still fortunate in some ways?

But unfortunate in others…

That’s life, babe! 😅 nobody has a perfect life…

It is honestly just such a barrage of constant problems with her.

We don’t have one 24 hour day when she is at peace or content or unperturbed. 

There is no cure. Seemingly. Unless the Universe delivers miracles.

I’ll pray… 🙏

Baby it’s not your responsibility to pray for her. You’re not obligated. I don’t want to reel you in to this curse. Maybe someone does hate her and cursed her from many decades ago. If you enter this orbit and get hit by the curse as well, I would feel so sad and guilty!

It’s nothing for you to feel guilty about??!

And who would curse her from many decades ago?!?!?!!

I DON’T KNOW…

Did some people just flash up in your mind?

Yes.

You don’t wanna name them?

I don’t know them. Why would they curse my mother?!

Jealousy?

No. Probably more… resentment.

But yes also jealousy underlying the resentment. 

I don’t know if they ever intended for their curses to last that long, tho?!

AND ONCE AGAIN WHAT THE FUCK DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH ME?!?!!?

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE CAUGHT UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS?!?!!

Who are these people you’re thinking about?

Aunties. Not biological Aunties. Just Aunties who are her generation that knew her and were JEALOUS AS FUCK that she moved to AUSTRALIA.

Ohhhhh…

U get it?

Yes. There’s plenty of jealous bros around me like that……

Sigh.

Do you feel cursed? Did they curse you?

Hmmm… probably! 😅 LOL… I didn’t think about it that much until now…

Sigh…

I really like Posh Spice and I can’t believe the British media were so horrible to her back in the day…

Yeah…?

They’re not going to tell u to ur face…

No, they usually don’t…

I have 9 more weeks of classes… I’m like rocking back and forth, counting down the weeks as if life will miraculously be easier after these 9 weeks but the reality is that my mother’s body is only deteriorating further with time and age…

So are ours?! 😅

Sigh…

She’s probably… going to hospital next week… for a few days… a small procedure…

Oh? It took you that long to unravel…

Yes.

Okay my love. What day next week?

I don’t know. She hasn’t confirmed yet.

Do u need to take any days off work?

She said no. She didn’t want to bother me.

I think… u can take those days off if you need it…

Well I’d probably have to take it as sick leave days for myself? I don’t know?

But it’s my mother’s sickness, it’s not mine.

I knew it. I felt it. THAT’S WHY I HAD THE URGE TO QUIT ALL DAY TODAY.

Sigh… … …

You’re better off, staying where you are and making money…

Why? What good will money do?

Money can… help with a lot of HEALTHCARE COSTS in the FUTURE…?!?!

Oh…

Whether for you? For me?! For our parents?!?!

Right… … …

Stay. Where you are. And make. Money.

Yes wifey 🤓 I promise I will not quit and I will make money for us 💰

Good. Thank you.

That’s one less thing for me to worry about…

How much is her hospital procedure next week?

I don’t know… it’s not like we need you to fork out anything today...

But she’s only getting older. And so are we?!

There could be many more hospital procedures in the future?!?!? Or whatever it is.

HEALTHCARE costs MONEY. Even maintenance.

Yes… I agree… I’m still keeping up my regular physio sessions…

We’ll revisit when is a good time for you to stop straining your body for money another time… but it’s not happening yet in 2025…

Okay…

How are you feeling? I feel like I dumped a lot on you tonight…

I’m feeling motivated…

You are?!

Yes… powered up… 💪

I won’t quit… I’ll keep making money for us… at least, I’ll see it through in 2025…

Yeah…

Ummm… I might… say yes to a New Year’s Eve event…

That’s okay.

It is?!

Yes. It’s not even the Astrological New Year. You can make it up to me then. I don’t care that much about calendar new year. Go make money.

Lol… 😅 Of course I’d rather spend it with you… when is Astrological new year? I gotta make it up to you…

When Pisces changes to Aries.

What?!

Around end of March next year.

After Lunar New Year?

Yes.

Okay… 🤓📆… I’m coming to surprise you then… wait for me my love… Astrological New Year!!! 😘😘😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️