Baby ru looking fwd 2 my event?
I’m not sure? I don’t know what to think? Are you excited?
No I’m not excited, I don’t really give a fuck, I just have to do it. There’s no way to back out. I’m under contract.
Right… umm… 😅
R u stressed?
No. I feel nothing. I’m not inspired. I’m not motivated. I just have to do it.
Aren’t u making lots of money? Isn’t that motivation?
It feels like obligation. U don’t even care how rich I am. I’ve made enough money for the lifestyle you want…
Yeah that’s true and the whole time you could’ve made music working from home without being famous…
😫😫😫 ughhh don’t remind me! I miss u so much… I wanna come home 🥺❤️
Well I don’t know what is going on astrologically but I also feel like October, November are about to be my most intense months of 2025 and then I’ll finally be able to breathe a sigh of relief in December and 2026…
U really think so?
Every day I’m praying for everything to unfold smoothly… every day I’m praying for miracles. Every day I’m asking for a higher power to give me patience. Help me get thru this day by day… maybe I’m not writing about it but the thoughts have been there…
🥹❤️ I wish u could tag along to my events…
And risk being discovered by ur fans?! 😅
No… I know we don’t want that…
Sigh… u know I’ve been worrying about my current job too…
Why?
The economy…
What about it?
I dunno… 😅😅😅 I have thoughts… I have worries…
What else would u wanna do?
I don’t want to do anything. I wanna marry u and be a housewife.
Oh yeah 😍
What else do you wanna do?
Like u said… I wanna come home… work from home… make music from home… OWN MY MASTERS of the music that I make from home…
Oh yes… I forgot about the masters…
If u could start ur own fashion store, what type of store would it be?
Would I tho?! I dunno if I would…
U don’t have any type of store u would want?
Sigh… I don’t have those kinds of daydreams anymore… I don’t dream of being the boss that is stressing about running a store…
What would give u more meaning and purpose in life?
I think my life has meaning and purpose simply existing…
I’m trying to be content in every moment… I don’t always succeed… but I’m trying…
Hmmm… contentment…
I try… it’s not always… it’s not 24/7, but I’m trying…
How?
I dunno… just breathing… accepting… as each moment happens… — again, I don’t always succeed! I’ve been triggered a few times already in the past 24 hours. So it doesn’t happen successfully all the time at all.
Sigh… I only make Fernando seem content. I am not content at all.
Yeah…
Are u mad? Are u angry?
I feel… stuck.
I feel like I’m in jail.
The contract is my prison cell.
Well it’s a cell that’s still making a lot of money?!
It’s not about the money anymore.
Ahhh… that’s what’s changed…
I’d make… more money… making my own music from home? And if I own those Masters?
It’s possible… I’m not gonna deny it as impossible, I think it is very possible…
But what’s wrong with waiting until the contract ends to do that for ur next era?
Sigh. I feel STUCK… I want the contract to end NOW… 😫
Yeah… … …
I think ur just tired and grumpy…
Yes.
Lol…
What would help improve ur mood?
If u were here to cuddle with…
Yeah… I know…
🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️
I miss u too…
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