Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Babe, I used to be so happy…

Used to?!

There was a moment in time. I was genuinely so happy…

And there were these acquaintances who visited Australia, we showed them around, we were being polite. They were bewildered by my happiness.

They said “we’ve never met anyone as happy as you!”

And I was. At that time. I WAS HAPPY…

I think this was when I said u sounded high. U weren’t happy, u were high.

I was at a fairly elevated level of contentment…

Uhuh…

Some things happened with that couple. And I still feel — subconsciously they were jealous.

I don’t think it was subconscious babe…

No but u don’t know about the other things that happened.

Uhuh. Okay.

I think, they muttered a curse towards me and my family…

Oh?

Yeah.

Ur suddenly thinking about this now?

Yes.

Even when I think about it now. The series of circumstances that led to us allowing them into our lives for a short while to show them around Australia… it was at a time when couch surfing was popular, and AirBnb was just beginning…

But we were simply being friendly acquaintances…

They couch surfed at your place?

U know, when I think about it now, I’m like, why did we even trust them?

It’s a little unsettling…

The dog — did not trust them.

The dog had to be restrained… the dog did not like their energies.

This is why u trust dogs… more than humans…

Sometimes… 

90% of the time a dog’s pretty accurate, especially in hindsight now when I think back about these moments.

Hmmm… what else happened?

U know what… if I had to use a metaphor, I would say, they were a Blake Lively couple….

Blake Lively and Ryan Reynolds?

I don’t know about the Ryan Reynolds part…

What does Blake Lively couple mean?

They seemed nice at first… but the more I spent time with them, cracks started to show…

U think that’s Blake Lively?

Maybe not. Maybe just a rumoured reputation of a Blake Lively. Okay fine let’s not use her name.

They were fake nice people.

It’s not only a fake nice.

I think they fooled themselves. They were deluding themselves too with their own narratives. Why they were travelling world… whatever else was happening…

Eventually that couple broke up. They didn’t stay together anyway but they presented themselves like an old married couple.

It’s often made me look back and wonder, was the guy using the girl? Or vice versa?

I don’t know enough details… this is really strange to bring up on ur birthday weekend…

But I’m thinking over the decades in my life and this couple was a thorn in one of the chapters.

They were wolves in sheep’s clothing.

There. Okay I take back the Blake Lively metaphor. I don’t know her.

But this particular couple — let’s call a spade a spade. They were fucked up on the inside — and it’s only in hindsight I can absolutely see that.

I’m not comfortable with how uncomfortable they’ve made u…

It was such a short time that they were even passing through my life.

Why as a couple?! Why a couple unit?!

I don’t know either…

If Taylor and Travis are an emblem of a beautiful couple, happy, joyous and content couple — this couple was the opposite.

But they tried to present as a Taylor and Travis. They were even fooling themselves that that’s what they were.

Oh?

It didn’t work. Cracks presented itself the whole time… it’s just at the time — I didn’t react. I held my breath. I held my tongue.

They were only visiting Australia for a very short time. Eventually they left.

But looking back now — I think they cursed this house. They cursed our family.

We weren’t perfect to begin with but I think they resented us a lot — so they added more curses.

Do u think… the curses are lifting?

Well. I have that awareness now…

I’m still a little confused cos there’s a lot u’ve left out… u haven’t explained…

It’s better that way for the blog…

What else do u want to say?

I should block them on social media…

They’re still on social media?!

We’ve been polite acquaintances this whole time…

Oh…

Yes. I will block.

…

They’re blocked.

Just like that.

I had to. For my own consciousness.

Blocked 🚫 and it feels good.

It feels like a weight off.

If they ever cared to look me up and find out I’ve blocked them, it sends a message.

I knew it.

I knew you were full of shit the whole time.

I was being nice.

I tried to overlook those cracks.

Crackheads?!

Lol… let’s say yes for the fictional narrative of this blog… but no, not in real life… I wouldn’t go that far… and that’s the thing. It wasn’t that obvious…

Of all the people I’ve met in my now 40 years of life…

When did u meet them?!

Somewhere between ten years ago… so this was a lesson learned in my 30s for sure…

A lesson in ur 30s…

Yes. And it’s really hard to explain or describe…

They are… almost very normal… very normal people with human emotions and reactions of envy and jealousy…

But also, a polite veil… and ambitions to climb…

Hmm…

Oh…

What babe?

I wonder if one of ur staff members are like that…

If they are, they’re not closely under me because I’ve filtered out those types.

Well… they’re still working for ur company…

They’re everywhere. I don’t get close to those people.

I think… they delight in other people’s misfortunes and they are flabbergasted when others are riding a happiness or success wave.

It bothers them. It irks them. “WHY ISN’T IT HAPPENING TO ME?!!?!”

And well?

That’s between them and God isn’t it?! The Universe and whatever you wanna call it…

They sound like normal shitty fake nice people.

Yeah… which I generally steer clear of anyway…

Ur mad they got as close as they got. At that time.

Yes. And I wasn’t even in my 20s. I was in my 30s.

Hmmm… do u think, u’ve avoided anyone similar recently? Like a work acquaintance or anyone like that?

Maybe…

Maybe?

Yes. Actually, I have. And still, I am non-confrontational babe…

I know.

I’ve applied for LV anyway. I’m gonna keep applying to other stores around November, December… I’m moving on…

Do u think… it helps u to recognise this in people, before u start working for luxury stores?

Yeah… of course…

Mmmm…

U already hadn’t talked to them for many years, right?

Yeah. I might even still be in a random Facebook group with them. I don’t care enough to fully exit myself because I am inactive anyway. The most I just did was look up, unfriend, block.

I’m glad u put up that boundary.

Me too. I feel lighter already.

No more curses.

Hopefully… I mean… as much as can be avoided…

This lesson is learnt. Whatever they represented.

When there’s an actual “haha, delight in others suffering” — those kinds of cracks.

Those are shitty humans.

Yes.

They’re like hate watchers on social media.

They just watch people’s stories waiting to see u fall on ur face to laugh and chuckle.

🙄 eye rolling…….

I know right. But they don’t present themselves like that in real life. At first — they seem very nice!

Yeah… 😒…

It takes time and then there’s a moment when you realise, “oh… there it is…”

What is?

A dark cloud in their Souls… it’s very nasty…

Yeah…

I am not qualified to heal it…

U don’t have to be.

Thank u baby ❤️

I’m feeling… so thankful today… I never spoke to them about ur existence.

Lol what?!?!

I forgot about u at the time… actually u were around… but u never came up in conversation with them. I’m so thankful for that reality. Who knows what they would’ve done with that information.

Oh…

They give travelling con artists vibes. Now when I think about it…

I get it.