Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

I feel like we need a different word for my dreams. They’re not fluffy happy romantic dreams.

Disturbing dreams?

Lol… it wasn’t disturbing but…

I dreamt of 2 rat 🐀 friends. They are born in the year of the rat 🐀.

One of them, I still talk to, the other I don’t talk to anymore…

Rat 1 and Rat 2?

Yes.

Rat 1… it was about their weight… probably because I watched Biggest Loser documentary?! 😅😅😅

It doesn’t even feel worth mentioning now… but we were driving on a road trip in America and they got car sick and the driver had to keep stopping the car for them…

What does car sickness have to do with weight?

It doesn’t! But in the dream it just happened and she had to get off to vomit 🤢 like the scenes in the Biggest Loser….

Lol so this wasn’t really about that friend it was because u watched that documentary last night before bed.

Yeah… 😅😅😅

Rat 2?

Rat 2… her husband was cheating on her… someone else told me. And they were kinda mean about it like she deserves it. They didn’t like her. They thought she was a bitch.

But in the dream I said to Rat 2, “do u want to know?” — it’s an understanding between friends. We’ve asked each other in the past. If someone in the group has information that ur significant other is cheating on u, would u wanna know? We’re not giving that info or any details until u feel that u wanna know.

She froze. Backed away. “No, no, I don’t wanna know.”

She would rather stay in the marriage and turn a blind eye. She doesn’t want to know.

Okay…?

That was the dream.

Do u think it’s real?

I don’t even talk to her anymore!

Unfortunately it’s not surprising if it is real. And my heart genuinely ached for her in the dream.

I was feeling, even tho we’re not really friends anymore, I wouldn’t wish this upon her, ever. I wouldn’t even wish this upon my worst enemies!

I felt like, in the dream, “oh… u are entering a difficult chapter of ur life…” — because “cheating husband” is not an EASY chapter of ANY WOMAN’S LIFE.

It’s the most psychologically traumatic. Probably the most PTSD of their lives after they get out of that situation — IF they get out at all?!?!?!

What do u mean by get out?

Divorce.

Right…

(Taking this in…)

(Trying to understand…)

Why would some women not… get out…?

If the husband is very rich? If the husband has a particular social status? If their lifestyles are already set up a certain way?

If there’s kids…

(Shrugs shoulders) 🤷‍♀️

(Nodding, comprehending)…

But what is that then?

That turns to a loveless marriage.

Is it better to be divorced, on ur own financially and everything else like that, than to stay in a loveless marriage that provided some material comforts?

I don’t think this question applies to millennials? I think millennial women would just be independent enough to leave?

It depends…

You’d be surprised…

Some women suffer in silence.

Ain’t nobody writing songs for them, not even Taylor Swift.

Lol… 😅 and u somehow found a way to bring it back to TS.

Well it wouldn’t be on brand would it? Imagine her singing “I’m staying for the kids… it’s a loveless marriage…”

I can imagine her singing it as a country song! 😅

LOL… welp… okay then?!

Ur dreams…

I know right?

U might be psychic 🔮

I think that was a psychic dream.

Ummm… even if it was, she backed away from me in the dream. She didn’t want to know. So there’s no reason to reach out.

I know which friend ur talking about and the rumours have been swirling for years. Older brother knows… the husband’s side of the story…

That’s purely fiction babe.

I’ll put it in a song for u one day 😘❤️

Mmm…

Does it make u worried about us?

No. I know that’s not us.

U didn’t even go to this friend’s wedding?

Didn’t I? I can’t remember?

I was gonna GO to see u and u backed out of the wedding at the last minute!!!

U want my Truth?!

First of all, it was a series of inconveniences and that was my reason for not attending.

Second of all — I was like, does she even want me there?! What if I get drunk at the reception and blurt out all the other shit?!

What other shit?

… … …

Ur still being her secret keeper even tho ur not friends anymore?

Sometimes the best thing as a friend is to stay away. Let them live the life they always dreamed.

That dream has cracks in it. The husband is cheating already.

Well… … …

We don’t talk anymore. There’s nothing to say.

Did u go to the wedding?

No. When I found out u weren’t going, I didn’t go either.

I caught up with u and older brother separately… a few months later ish?

Yeah 🥰😍❤️ it was so good to see u… so much better than at a busy noisy wedding.

I don’t know who she’s living her life for, anymore. Does that make sense?

Maybe with kids now, her sense of self is in motherhood. But that will only delay the inevitable.

Kids grow up.

They do…

I feel like, I’m turning 40, I knew this person when I was 18? 19 years old? We are so far removed in our realities.

I don’t know the 41 year old rat 🐀

She has other friends to talk to… even qualified psychologist friends… she’ll be alright.

What if… she surprises you and gets divorced?

Hmmm… the biggest surprise would be if she leaves him AND the kids. If she goes, “fuck u all!!!” And moves to England or somewhere like that. Buys herself a little town house. Sets up a flower shop or something random like that. U know what I mean? Maybe adopt 3 cats.

U think that will be her healing?

I don’t know… it’s just an imagination…

In the dream. What I felt — maybe it’s based on who she was — she didn’t want to know. So she wouldn’t have wanted me or anyone else to tell her that he is cheating.

I think… she reached out to u subconsciously… even tho she “didn’t wanna know” in the dream…

She was comparing our relationship in the dream.

We have a better sex life.

She was comparing the husband doing all these sexual acts with the mistress.

I thought u said she didn’t wanna know?

She both knew and didn’t want to know in the dream. There were simultaneous realities.

Right….

I was feeling in the dream, “Yes. Me and Fernando, we do those things and it is love. For us, it is lovemaking. But ur husband and that mistress — that’s not love. That’s lust. He’s just fucking around.” I felt like there was a big difference.

I see… 👀

U get it too?

Yeah… lots of guys fuck around… it’s not love…

Women too! But now we’re talking about marriages…

I felt her sadness and sorrow in the dream.

It was like she was looking at our relationship and she couldn’t deny our love. She was like, “u two have the real thing. Now I’m stuck in a marriage that doesn’t have anything.”

Oh…

But who is her soul mate? Does everyone get a soul mate in every lifetime? I’m not sure about that…

This is one of the longest conversations we’ve ever had about somebody else’s relationships… 😅

Sigh… I used to care for her like a sister…

I remember her… not helping… us at all… I remember she stirred the pot and made things worse in the early 2000s…

U have no sympathy for her?

I’m struggling with it, babe… I am more in love with u than ever because u have so much compassion for her. But at the same time, I agree with whoever else called her a bitch because she fucking was a bitch!!!

I don’t know… she was raised in a conservative culture…

If she’s 41 years old she has nobody else to blame. She’s an adult.

Yeah… … …

Didn’t she give u the worst advice of all?! She said “how do u know u wanna marry Fernando? It’s like picking up a peach at the supermarket u don’t know if u picked up a rotten peach. Don’t u wanna try more peaches?” Shit like that? She told u to go fuck other guys to be sure wanted to be with me?!

Somehow. In the early 2000s… that was the logic… yes…

I HAVE NO FUCKING SYMPATHY FOR THIS FICTIONAL CHARACTER U JUST FABRICATED AS THIS WOMAN BABE. SHE IS NOTHING TO ME.

Let’s change topics 😘❤️

Yes… 🤗💕