I’m okay… but I’m not great…
I just finished the latest Perfect Match episodes…
How was it?
Meh. I don’t really care about their drama storylines. Just watching but not relating.
Ur not projecting anything?
Not at all… lol… kinda just watching feeling relieved our relationship is in a good place…
Mmmm… 🥰💕🥰💕🥰💕
I’m really dreading class tomorrow… I feel like I’m now counting down to December.
Before I was counting down to when your tour ended… but now I am counting down to Christmas 🎄
I guess that’s the next…. big shift?
What shift do u think?
I don’t know but at least I’ll finish my course and by then I can re-evaluate.
Yeah…?
Or do nothing. Lay low. Lol… just chilling…
Mmmm… 🥰💕
I can’t wait to tell u more in person…
Why don’t u wanna tell the blog?
Because… I still have to show up to class… maybe I’ll think of a way to write about it as a fictional story one day like in five years or something like that. Need some distance from the situation to fictionalise it.
I see 👀
But… are you… okay?
Yes. Totally fine. It just sucks going to class knowing that I’m not going to change my mind. I’m finishing this course but I don’t want to work in this industry at all.
What about the seniors help?
Sigh… if I have to be completely honest with myself… idgaf…
LOL…..
It’s a lot just to help my own family…
I don’t actually care…
Yeah. I get it.
U do?
Yeah… actually I feel that way about my current contract… I’M SO OVER IT.
Was it more motivating when I didn’t remember you?
It was a different kind of torture.
Lol…
Yes the goal of the torture was to get ur attention.
Well u still CAN get my attention?!
I’m waiting to be impressed, my love…
Oh?
When I did stumble upon you and your bros I was really intrigued and then impressed and I was delighted enough that I fucking BOUGHT TICKETS TO THE NEW YORK CONCERT.
Why the fuck did I do that babe?!?! And I hadn’t even remembered you yet?!
But… but… 🥺… these days… we’re boring you….?
A little bit. Yes. If ur company sent out a survey to all the subscribers I would answer stuff like “satisfied” but not “extremely satisfied” — probably an overall rating of 6.5/10
🫠🫠🫠 That is so fuckin low. We’re at a 6.5/10?!?!??!
Sigh… maybe it’s gonna change when I get to actually hear the new music…
I doubt it. It is not chill lofi or r&b or anything like Boyz II Men…
Oh… 😅😅😅 lol… but that wasn’t what intrigued me in the first place!!!
Then what did u LIKE in the first place?
Mmmmm… I don’t know… I liked the song with a bit of pop and rap…
Pop and rap…
LoL… 😅😅😅 the song that was similar to Stray Kids Chk Chk Boom? I think I liked that song?
Oh… u liked that…
But… it depends…
I know it depends… u also like 2Pac and Eminem… it’s hard to gauge exactly what’s gonna impress u.
Hmmm…
R u still obsessed with K-pop Demon Hunters?
Not really.
What’s ur favourite music right now?
Believe it or not… Jason The Ween…
JAKURA?!?!?!
😅😅😅 lol… and some of his other songs. I’ve just added them to my daily playlist…
Wow… u like a really… under-produced song…
It’s stripped back. It’s raw. And plus I know the context is about the relationship — doesn’t matter real or not — the on camera relationship with Sakura.
Right… … … 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅
I think they have “hooked” me with that.
With what?
The whole Jakura lore and content ecosystem…
I see… 👀
Have u been watching more of it?
Yeah. Sometimes… didn’t I tell u I watched them visit Japan?
Yeah… anything else?
Not too much else but I can already follow their story against my will. The headlines are on my algorithm. I have a general idea of their entire relationship without clicking into every video clip of their content.
Wahhhhhh… 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠
LOL… 😅
Sigh… I’m gonna… sit with this for a bit…
Okay my love. My point is… I don’t want u to suffer in ur career.
I don’t want u to do that either!!!
Well… … … I don’t have anything to say about my classes right now. I’m just gonna get thru it. But ur creativity with the bros… I dunno…
I can accept that because of the bros we’ll never get a 10/10 rating from u. But at least I wanna reach for an 8.5/10 — I feel like I could accept that. And blame all the bros for the missing 1.5 — but 6.5/10 is really really TOO LOW 👎
I’m really mad!!! 😤 I want the bros to do better!
But I feel like I’m NOT ur typical fan! Ur fans are giving u a 12/10! They loooooooove it!!!
(Shaking his head) it’s not good enough. I won’t accept it!!!
😅😅😅 babe… I need to shower and get ready for bed…
Okay… I miss u I love u 🥺❤️
I miss u and love u too 😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️
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