How is my lady lover lover?
LOL… sigh… I’m praying for miracles…
Miracles?
I need a miracle with my mother. I need a miracle with my assignments. I need a miracle with WORK. I would even appreciate a miracle with you!
Miracle with me?!!?!?!
Give me a SIGN… something TANGIBLE for when you’ll be here next! When can I expect you?! When do I make a WAXING APPOINTMENT?!?!?!
(Chuckles)… (sheepish grinning)…
I’ll pray for that miracle with you.
Why?!
I haven’t given you a definite sign yet because I also don’t know — “when” —
Sigh…
It’s not just my availability it’s also my sense of courage. I could just as easily show up but still keep lurking. That’s my comfort zone. I’ve been used to lurking!!!
I thought we’ve been over this…
But I have my relapses. I have my sudden panic attacks. Oh no, I don’t know if I’m ready…
What’s gotten into you today?
I’m not happy with the fashion photos…
Why?
I don’t like the lighting.
All your fans say you looked great…
They say that about everything. I’m not happy with it.
What does this have to do with you coming to see me?
I need to make sure… about the lighting… at the restaurants I’m taking you on a date to…
IT DOESN’T MATTER.
YES IT DOES!!!
NO IT DOESN’T! YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE INCOGNITO. YOU DON’T EVEN WANT TO BE SPOTTED WHEN YOU’RE ON A DATE WITH ME.
THAT DOESN’T CHANGE THE FACT THAT I WANT GOOD LIGHTING — EVEN AS MR INCOGNITO — WHEN YOU ARE ON A DATE WITH ME.
(Sigh)… okay…
Okay?!
Well?!?! What choice do I have?! You’ll be ready when you’re ready.
(Smiles)… I’m almost ready…
That’s okay…
It is?
Yes, my love… I’m too tired to fuss over this.
You’re very “tired” — all the time…
(Sigh)… emotionally tired… physically I’m just chilling…
What’s WRONG?!!?!?!?!!?
I don’t know… maybe it’s my mother…
Where is she?
She went to the post office.
By herself?
Yes.
Is she alright?
I guess she should be fine…
Then why is she still draining you emotionally?
Because she just does that…
Oh dear…
I’m praying for miracles… I need… a higher power to intervene…
Okay…
I just feel like, I don’t have anything left in me. I can’t control anything. I can’t do anything “right” — I don’t even have the energy to attempt it.
Hmmm….
Tomorrow is assignment day.
Uhuh…
I need those 24 hours to complete it.
Okay… I won’t bug you…
(Sigh)… unfortunately I will try to ignore you…
That’s okay. But I’ll still be here if you need me…
Thank you…
Do you wanna cuddle?
Yessssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Pouting)…………………………….
(Cuddle cuddle cuddle cuddle smooches and kisses and hugs and squeezes!!!!!!)
Virgo Sun Pisces Moon 