Babe…?
Yes, my love?
I’m suddenly awake…….
I noticed 👀
I didn’t have my usual 2 or 3:00 am “omg I can’t sleep”…
Yeah…
I tried the sleep patch….
Oh, is that what it is? Did it work?
I think so? But this is not a testimonial, it’s a fictional blog!
Yeah…
I still had the cat purring fireplace YouTube background sounds…
Uhuh…
But now I’ve woken up. I needed to go to the toilet…
Lol…
But now I took the patch off. I’m just gonna try and rest… but I’m surprisingly refreshed and I dunno if I’m gonna be exhausted later…
Mmmm…
I’m gonna try the patch again this evening. And if I wake up refreshed like this again say at 4:00 am or 4:30 am then I’m just gonna try to get some assignments done.
Right.
I need to squeeze in whatever time I have to make that type of progress.
Yes.
I’m kind of impressed by these patches, babe…
Yeah?
They’re not TGA assessed tho…
No…
My friends said “You’re the guinea pig. Tell us if it works!”
Lol… do u think it works?
Well… I’ve been using the iron one. I’m not sure if it’s placebo.
But I’ve been drinking energy drinks less. I just get thru the work shift without reaching for another energy drink. That was my intention with the patch. I wanted to feel that I have energy. I shouldn’t need another energy drink. So I just drink water and don’t need to reach for anything else.
Sounds like it’s working?
Yes… but then the Premenstrual patch, is the one that made me bleed on day 26 instead of my usual day 27…
Yeah, I don’t like the sound of that. U don’t need those patches.
Maybe not… I stopped using the premenstrual…
Don’t use it next month. Ur PMS isn’t even that bad! A little bit of moodiness it’s not unmanageable.
Hmmm… I’ll see how I feel next month.
But okay, I’ll try the sleep patch again this evening…
What if u end up relying on them?
Hmmm… I’ll see how I go…
Maybe I won’t take them for 3 consecutive nights… so every 3rd night I’ll try to fall asleep on my own without the patch…
Okay…
It’s a fictional blog. I wouldn’t recommend this approach for others. They should definitely consult their own Drs.
Yeah.
Mmmm… but I kinda like using the patches.
Yeah?
It’s easier than taking pills 💊
Yeah…
Okay I’m yawning 🥱
Go back to sleep…
I had something else on my mind about Frodo and Fernando…
Lol, what…?
Frodo doesn’t get along with my mother, Fernando does.
Ahhhh… true….
It’s only Fernando that will keep up with her constantly changing topics.
Yes… and Fernando will not confront her about encouraging you to avoid carbs for dinner.
No, he wouldn’t do that. He just wouldn’t say anything.
Sigh…
Why sigh?
I know… that’s probably all I should do… bring Fernando out of my toolkit when I’m around your mother…
Yeah…………… it might have to be… our way of coexisting with her…..
On the outside I’m going to stay being Frodo. But the personality will be more Fernando…
Yeah… but when it’s just us you’re back to Frodo.
YES.
Mmmm…
Is that really ok with u?
Yes. I am kinda amused that I didn’t think of this earlier for myself…
I have to treat my mother like a customer of my work in retail…
I just have to have “customer service” face on when she’s around to get along with her.
Yes. I’m listening 👂
I’m half-listening…
I don’t have to take absolutely everything she’s talking about to heart.
Yes. She’s my mother. And there’s still other sweet moments, like the rainbows 🌈
And those are the memories with her I want to cherish.
I don’t want to cloud my mind with frustration from the other stuff.
I want to remember we shared a memory of wishing on rainbows for each other. Me for her good health. Her for me to find a good husband. That’s already one of the best memories.
It is a sweet memory…
So now I’m going to observe… if she’s triggering me — can I remind myself to go into customer service mode instead?
Ahhhh… smooth…….
Maybe? We’ll see…
I love u 🥺❤️
I love u too! 🥰💕
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