Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Babe… how is everything?

Sigh…

I’m sensing some things…

But can you also sense that I don’t want to tell the public blog?

I wasn’t sure… I’m a little clouded by my own thoughts…

We are good — me and you — always trust that we are good.

What are you trying to say?

I feel like… in terms of… a narrative, or even anything close to an explanation… is not something for the public blog…

I feel like… out of respect to my other family members, we’ll keep all this side of my life private.

Oh…

“We” can talk about it face to face. But it’s not to be shared with the public blog. We’re gonna have to draw some boundaries… it’s at the back of my mind… but I won’t highlight it. I will seem happy and chirpy on the blog. Because — this is my safe space. This is my place to be silly, to be daydreaming, to write whatever I want.

Hmm… you’re making it sound like real life is not fun or silly or too good right now…

Well… real life comes with real responsibilities… let’s leave it at that…

Mmmmmm…?

Sigh…

What sigh?

I just shuffled some Moonology cards…

And…?

I pulled the card: “COMMUNICATION IS KEY”

LOLOLOLOL… YES PLEASE. COMMUNICATE TO ME.

But with the WHOLE BLOG TOO?!?!?!?!!

You are very creative, my love… I believe in you…

I was thinking… it’s not the right timing…

For us?!?!

No — for sharing things about my family.

Oh…

I feel like we should talk about it face to face. I feel like — one day — if I’m ever going to fictionalise it — maybe we write these stories together.

What stories?

Maybe we write them, as if we are writing to our children — about Grandma and Grandpa — maybe they are hippos, or giraffes, or something cute like that — and then we weave in some stories… one day, in the very distant future…

You’d like us to write children’s books together, based on your family?

Maybe not like that so specifically…

Family’s shared stories… and experiences… experiences that I’m even processing right now. It’s not the right timing for the blog. It’s not for me to “spell out” like, “Dear diary, this is exactly what happened as Mum got home today” — it’s not like that.

Hmmmm…

It’s just private family stuff.

But I’m also part of this family!!!

You will be — yeah, you will be…

Hmmm…

We can’t push it, darling. It’s to be respected. The family members would not want us to blog or even write songs…

Oh…

One day, maybe, we write a children’s book together. Maybe a whole series of them. How does that sound?

That’s what you would like to do together?

I think it helps to compartmentalise it that way — we just shove it to a drawer in our minds, “That’s for the children’s book one day” — if we feel like we are even getting an inkling of inspiration.

Say you are finally meeting my mother. Even the lunch or dinner, whatever experiences. You’re trying to process it all — but out of respect for HER WISHES — it’s not allowed to be a song. It’s not allowed to be on my fictional blog, or in a poem, or anything like that.

PERHAPS — the only “comfortable medium” would be a children’s book. And not literally “This is the story about Grandma” — does that make sense?

So I need to start a new notebook of children’s book drafts…

Maybe… if that helps… but I wish to write it TOGETHER — it’s not “your” story, it’s not “my” story — we can write it together one day. As our shared project. And for emotional processing, to be totally frank.

It’s really hard to grasp right now, what you mean by all this… I can’t fully imagine, and I can’t fully sense it…

Because you’ve never met these family members. It’s like me trying to muscle test your bros — I’ve never met them. I can’t sense any of that.

Hmmm…

Mmmm…

Can you just give me some more clues, please?!?!?!?!

Sigh…

Let me think about it…

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Honestly I’d rather move on to other topics.

Oh…

Like I’m just gonna press publish. Just gonna start a new topic, and be all cute and happy…

Ohhhh… NOW YOURE PUTTING ON BLOG FACE. YOU’RE NOT EVEN BEING AUTHENTIC ANYMORE. THIS IS ABSOLUTE FICTION. WHATEVER IS GOING ON IN REAL LIFE, YOU’RE JUST MAKING SHIT UP FOR THE BLOG.

Well… it’s a fictional blog…

(Sigh)… I think… I understand…

You do?

Well… I just wanna know if… you’ve talked about me… or anything like that…

It’s way too early for that. No. We haven’t talked about you. At all today. You’re not on her radar.

Oh… I see…

Is that it?! Is that all that you needed to know?

Sort of… I mean, of course I wanna know whatever else you wanna share with me — and the blog?

(Sigh) — there’s plenty I want to share WITH YOU — but none of that is stuff that I want to share with the BLOG………………..

Oh………..

Lol………………………..

Mmmmmmm………………

Have you had dinner yet?

Soon… yeah… about to go have dinner after I press publish…

Okay, okay… so… I won’t… “dig” more about your family stuff.

Thank you…

You wanna just talk about light-hearted topics on here?

Yes please. THIS IS MY SAFE SPACE. TO BE MYSELF AND DAYDREAM AND BE SILLY AND JOKE AROUND AND WHATEVER.

Okay…

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When I do arrive in real life…

Yes…?

Mmm… I kinda wanna know like…

Well…

Just be yourself.

WHO is THAT?!?!?!?!?!!?!

(Chuckles)………….

Okay, fine, you wanna know a funny story?

Oh, a funny story?

I just thought of it…

Mum came home. And there are fridge magnets that I have. From the Buddhist charity.

Uhuh?

The fridge magnets say some phrases in Chinese. I couldn’t read them. I didn’t know what they were saying. I just found them. Randomly. I thought she bought them?! For some reason we have them?! I think she forgot that either she bought them or someone gave them to her as a gift. I really did just randomly find them one day and opened it up, “Oh there’s some fridge magnets I can use” and I put it on my fridge…

It’s just — my fridge is the “meat fridge” where I keep all the meat. Because Mum is Vegetarian, “her” fridge — is the Vegetarian fridge.

And she came home today and she saw the fridge magnets on MY fridge and she’s like “Those phrases encourage people to be Vegetarian and you are keeping them on your MEAT FRIDGE!”

(LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL)… ^0^

Right?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!

Typical you… (smirk)…

(Sigh)… okay… so I guess I found a story to share with the blog…

THANK YOU. THAT’S WHAT I NEEDED!!!

Whyyyyyy?!?!?!?!

I don’t know, I just want SOMETHING — SHARE SOMETHING, ANYTHING!!!

Omg… (sigh)…

Are you going to take the magnets off?

No…

Oh… (chuckles)…

(LOL)…

It’s quite funny…………..

(Sigh)… I don’t know if it’s that funny but anyway……………..

Why did you put up those magnets?!

It was red with gold writing, the Chinese calligraphy, it looked pretty. It just looked like a nice blessing. I didn’t know it was about being Vegetarian……………

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!!! ^0^

Okay, that’s it!

^__^ ❤ ❤ ❤