Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

There was a Tik Tok tarot reading once… I think the messages resonated…

What did it say?

It said something along the lines of… you almost didn’t renew the contract…

You almost — could’ve, would’ve been available at this time in 2025…

But then, at the last minute, you hesitated — and you renewed the contract…

Uhuh…

Is it true!??!!?!

(Nodding)…

Do you regret it now?!

(Chuckles) — Yes and No —

I don’t think you should live with those kind of regrets…

No?

No, of course not! Don’t torture yourself with those kinds of thoughts…

Oh…

You’re making money, darling! You’re being a perfectly dependable man for Asian standards. That’s not something to regret…

Hmm…

Of course I miss you…

I MISS YOU… (STARTS TEARING UP)…

Okay?! But you can still find creative ways to see me?!?!?!?!

It’s not the same…

I know… it’s not the same…

How many more years is this contract, anyway?

Do you wanna try muscle testing it…? (Cheeky smirk)…

Okay…

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2 more years?

(Sheepish giggles)…

Doesn’t your bro have to do military service NEXT YEAR?! Every week, there is more and more chatter about this?! They will, inevitably, have to depart from the usual routines…

(Sigh) — You don’t have to worry about that.

I know I don’t, but I’m still curious…

I’m more worried about what am I going to do, realistically, after the contract ends… inevitably…

In 2 more years?

Maybe…

Hmmm… what do you want to do? What piques your interest?

You’re my main interest… I want to do you… (smirk)…

Stop! You’re being silly! You’re the one that redirected the conversation!!!

(Chuckles)… I couldn’t help it with the way you worded that question!!! (LOL) ^0^

(Sigh)… what other making-money career pathways have you been thinking about at the back of your mind… recently…?!?!?!!?

Hmnmm… (still mulling over this)…

I don’t want to be on camera anymore…

No?!

Nah… We’ve been through this MULTIPLE TIMES on this blog now.

I’m genuinely SICK OF IT.

You’re not like Don Lemon who left CNN and then self-funded his own podcast and is “on camera” self-funded now?!

NO.

I GENUINELY DON’T WANT THAT.

I REALLY HONESTLY DON’T. IT’S NOT EVEN FICTION. I’M DONE!!!

Lol… okay….?!?!?! You say that now… I’m still going to mentally prepare for one day you change your mind about that…

(Shaking his head)… I want to be done TODAY — but I signed the contract!!! I have to see it through!!!

Yes… you do…

Sigh… you guys are just spending your “down time” reflecting on whether or not you want to do this anymore and it’s a unanimous decision that you don’t?!

(Sigh) I haven’t talked to the other bros about it… but I feel that I am done. I am ready to move on once this contract finishes…

I know you keep saying that but what if you change your mind in the next few months? Or by 2026? Other stuff happens that will change your mind?

(Shaking his head) — I’ve made up my mind.

I don’t know if I dare to believe it…

You don’t?!

Well — unless you tell me face to face, I don’t dare to believe it… and even then, I’m not sure if I will believe it 100%…

I don’t think that… I even need to work anymore, after the contract ends…

You’re just SAYING THAT — omg you’re just feeling the annual leave feeling…

What annual leave feeling?

You’re on annual leave right now for like a week?! You’re just taking a break?!?!!?

EVERYBODY FEELS THIS WAY WHEN THEY’RE ON A BREAK!

The thought of going “back” to work is super depressing! “Ahh — I don’t wanna do that anymore!!!” — but they still pick themselves up and GET TO WORK when the annual leave is over! They’ll still SHOW UP AND GO TO WORK.

(Chuckles)… You think that’s all that this is?!

I don’t know… for sure… we haven’t even seen each other in person yet…

THAT’S WHY — I DON’T WANT TO BE FAMOUS ANYMORE WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER — I WANT FERNANDO TO BE OUT OF THE PUBLIC CONSCIOUSNESS. I’M DONE WITH FERNANDO AS A PUBLIC CHARACTER. I WANT US TO ENJOY OUR RELATIONSHIP PEACEFULLY, WITHOUT PARANOIA, WITHOUT BEING HASSLED BY ANYONE!

Mmmm… but wouldn’t there be heaps of other celebrities who go through similar situations…?

That’s why they’re not around anymore!

Fame doesn’t last THAT LONG — most people burn out. Most people just fade away and live a peaceful life. They made enough money. They don’t need to keep being “famous” and taking on campaigns and projects. They don’t need to keep touring. They don’t even need to do anything!

You’re saying that as if you have multi-platinum whatever Michael Jackson level of success — WHICH YOU DON’T.

The cash will eventually run out. The streaming numbers will eventually dwindle down. It’ll be like a cheque for $50 a month. You won’t be getting the “Top 100” type of income!

Hmmm… You think so?!

I don’t know exactly but that’s what I’m assuming… with artists who have faded away… isn’t streaming like soooooooo little money per stream? It’s not enough if you have like, 10 listeners a month. You’ll make what, 10 cents?! It’s not much!!!

Hmmm… So you think I shouldn’t quit?

I didn’t say that at all… we just need to find a good balance… something that you’re still going to feel happy to show up to, but also gives you a bit more of a private life…

Didn’t we go over Residency and stuff like that?!

No — I’m done with Fernando!

You say that but… I don’t know…

I’M DONE WITH FERNANDO!!!

(LOL)… okay?! Okay…

So you just wanna work on projects behind the scenes?

Maybe…

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Hmm… what about Games Writing?

Games Writing?

I think you could be a good games writer… I almost tried to dive in myself…

I think that if they meet me they’ll just want to sign on Fernando and be like, “Please please please let Fernando be featured as part of this game concept!!!”

Oh… hmm… and you don’t wanna do that?

(Shaking his head)… no… no more Fernando…

Wow… you’re really that sick of him?!

I don’t think he is SAFE — for us.

I’d rather just… have him fade away… his memory will live on and those fans will circulate all his images… I don’t care. I don’t want Fernando around “us” and our relationship.

I don’t want new projects for Fernando when the contract ends.

Ugh — I actually was mentally preparing for Fernando to just keep going for the rest of our lives and I’m just the secret wife…

(Chuckles)… I don’t want that for us.

Okay then…?

So you won’t be a games writer…

Do you like writing? Fiction? Science fiction? Longer stories? Are you getting sick of music?

Hmmm… maybe… I just wanna live with you and be a recluse. I don’t wanna do anything!

LOL… well what if I wanna do stuff?

Like what?

Like what if, I’ve finished my cyber security degree — I wanna build up Nicky’s YouTube channel?

I can help you with that! (Eyes lighting up!)

You would rather help Nicky from behind the scenes?

YES!!!

You’re really romanticizing like, being a couple and working together…

(Giggles)… I would LOVE TO!!!

Are you gonna be Nicky’s manager?! You’re gonna MANAGE Nicky’s campaigns and projects and contract negotiations?!?!?!

OOoohh… I could… I really could…!

I don’t expect you to do that at all, you know…

But now I’m excited at the thought of it!!!

She’s gonna have like, 50 subscribers, it won’t even be a popular channel at all.

(Smirk)… wanna bet…?

See?! YOU DO HAVE A CREATIVE BRAIN.

(Pouty…) so…?!

YOU HAVE EVERY POTENTIAL TO KEEP MAKING MONEY WITH YOUR CREATIVITY.

YOU ALREADY KNOW THE FORMULAS TO MAKE MONEY WITH YOUR CREATIVITY.

YOU KNOW HOW TO MAKE THE CASH FLOW — WITH CREATIVITY.

Yes, and?!?!?!

So you just don’t want to do it anymore as Fernando…?

(Shaking his head)… I really, really don’t.

If we’re married. If we’ve settled down somewhere — I just want US — our love bubble!

If you wanna do anything creative, of course, I can help you with ANYTHING you want me to help you with!

Sigh… it’s too far into the future for me to think about realistically…

That’s okay… I’ll keep thinking for the both of us…

(LOL)… well… if you don’t wanna be Fernando anymore, I’m okay with it…

Really?!

Yeah, of course… I’m not marrying Fernando…

No, you’re not…

That’s a good thing!

It is?!

Yes!!! I LOVE YOU! xoxoxoxoxoxxx