What are you doing tonight, my love?
Umm… I wrote down a few content ideas…
Oh?
I don’t have the mental energy to actually work on them tonight… but I have time tomorrow…
And you’re going to keep this up even when classes start?
I’m not going to beat myself up if I don’t actually publish content once a week. Maybe it ends up being once every 2 weeks when classes start?
I’m really going to take it easy with it… it’s not like I’m trying to be an influencer…
Then, what are you trying to do?
I’m trying to find an outlet for Nicky.
Nicky?
Yes — she needs an outlet. We can’t just be you and me on this blog, going on and on and on and on…
Why not?!?!!? (LOL)…
I don’t know…
Are you getting bored of me? (pouting)
No… I’m not getting bored of you…
I feel like something happened, there’s been a trigger…
Hmmm… economic… uncertainties?
Is that really it?! I feel like, intuitively, that’s not it…
No, it’s not it… it’s been at the back of my mind… every time I write about this “future” with Nicky and the YouTube channel, and the games room, stuff like that — at the back of my mind, I’m thinking… But that doesn’t just happen overnight… you have to chip away at it…
Oh… so that’s what it is…?
Pretty much, yes… like, sooner or later, I had to get back to my Tik Tok. I had to get back to social media in some kind of presence…
Is our Honeymoon over?!?!?!?!
LOL… I don’t think so… and we might have a second wave when you come back here in real life…
Ooohh… I’m looking forward to that…
But what if you don’t come as soon as I’m hoping? What if I have to wait even longer?! Then — I might as well keep myself busy… doing a little bit more of… something else… and not just blogging incessantly… daydreaming…
Awww… I LOVE YOUR DAYDREAMING…
Yeah but… okay then it does link back to the economic uncertainties…
It’s all interwoven.
Layers upon layers upon layers.
It all just kind of happened at once. And Mercury Retrograde! Let’s blame that as well.
(LOL)…
I did watch some concert clips…
Oh?
Well — it’s slight variations of the same thing…
I knew it, YOU’RE GETTING BORED.
YOU’RE GETTING BORED OF ME AND MY BROS!!!
(lololololololol)…………….. NOOOOO… MY LOVE… I AM NOT………………..
YES YOU ARE!!! YOU’RE GETTING BORED SO YOU’RE GOING BACK TO YOUR OWN TIK TOK AND YOU’RE ALLOWING YOUR MIND TO WANDER ONTO OTHER PROJECTS BECAUSE YOU ARE GETTING BORED OF ME AND MY BROS!!!
(Giggles)… it’s not like that… (big smiles)…
Then, what is it?
I want to have my own thing!
Uhuh…
I want to have my own thing — separate from you and your bros…
I want to exist as my own personality…
My own Alter Ego?!
The online persona…
Nicky…
Why doesn’t Nicky want to focus on singing?
Oh… nah… it’s really just a hobby!
You said the Tech content was a hobby.
It is too — but it’s more than a hobby — it could be a resume portfolio in the future…
That is your end goal?
Not really an end goal — just that it can be both? It can be a hobby that can also be showcased as a portfolio to potential future employers…
Collaborations? Do you want company or campaign sponsorships?
No… I’m not thinking about any of that yet…
Why?!?!?! ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT THAT FOR ME ALREADY?!?!?!!?
(Sheepish Giggles)… what if I was? What if I already had connections?
No…………. I don’t want that………………………
Why not?!?!!
Nicky doesn’t even “know” Fernando!!!
THEY DO NOT CROSS PATHS.
NOT EVEN ON SOCIAL MEDIA.
NICKY IS STAYING FAR, FAR, FAR, FAAAR AWAY FROM FERNANDO’S WORLD ONLINE.
Oh…?
Please — keep them separate for now…
What about when we’re married?!
Well — I don’t think it’s necessary while you’re still in your current contract?!
Aren’t you afraid for mine and Nicky’s safety?!?!
Not afraid — this is why I’m asking questions. I want to know EVERYTHING so then I can DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO PROTECT YOU AND NICKY.
Oh my god… we don’t need your protection!!!
We have nothing to do with you publicly!!!
Hmmm — that’s your intentions?
For at least… the next few years? I guess?
How many followers do you want Nicky to have in the next few years?
I don’t know…
Just gimme a number…
I don’t know, 3 million in 3 years?
Ooh… okay…?
What?!?! Is that too ambitious?!?!
(Chuckles)… no… I think that’s a cute number… 3 million… okay…
So you have a 3 year goal to reach 3 million…
Ughhhh… I just pulled a random number out of my ARSE!
I don’t actually care, babe…
Hmmm… but I care… I’m gonna watch the numbers for you…
Well — I’m NOT… lol… I’m just gonna create my content…
Uhuh…
BABE —
What?!
WHAT ARE YOU PLANNING?!?!?!?!!?
(Sheepish giggles)… nothing…
DON’T INTERFERE WITH MY CONTENT PLEASE!!!
Oh my god — darling — I would never!
You’re being sarcastic!!!!!!!
TEEEHEEEHEEEHEEEHEEE!!!!!
No, I’m serious!!! It’s not for you to help me with!!! I DON’T WANT YOUR HELP!!!
Why not?!?!?!
BECAUSE IT’S NOT NECESSARY!!!!
(Sigh)… what if I just… dabble in a tiny bit of help — you wouldn’t even notice that I was helping…
OMG………………………….
(Kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss)… let me… help you…
I haven’t even written ONE blog post.
I haven’t even made ONE proper Tik Tok in this new content direction.
When I WANT your help, I’ll let you know.
But right now — I’m in an experimental phase.
I don’t want to blow up overnight because I’m still EXPERIMENTING.
Oh?
Babe, I’m serious, I don’t need your help… I don’t want it…
Okay…… (still making notes for future help strategies)…
LOL… that’s enough…
I’m here if you need me.
Okay… I love that, thank you… but I don’t want to… tap into your resources at this stage, please…
Okay…
(Sudden realisation)… you’re not, secretly paying for readers for this BLOG, ARE YOU?!?!
(LOLOLOLOL) — No!!! Not this blog!!! Not with Poems2No1, I didn’t have anything to do with that!!!
LOLOLOLOLOL… okay, yeah, I believe you…
But your new TechTok stuff is really intriguing. I really wanna see if it grows… I wanna see what happens with it…
Well — of course you’ll get to! It’s all PUBLIC now?!?!?!
I haven’t privatised it… it’ll be out there…
Did you really delete all your Tik Toks about Fernando?
I put them on private… I’ve still gotta… download them onto a USB or something… just for our own private archives…
Awwww…
Yeah, I don’t want to forget… those moments… but… it doesn’t need to be on the public Tik Tok account…
(Giggles)…
Okay I think that’s enough for now?!
^__^ ❤ ❤ ❤ I LOVE YOU ❤ ❤ ❤
I love you too… xoxoxoxooxxoxoxxx
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