What movie did we watch?
U don’t remember?
I don’t remember…
I think I remember you deciding to sit thru the credits out of respect for the people who worked on the movie and to listen to the full song?
😏💕 u remember that moment?
Yes? I don’t think anyone else would’ve suggested that… it must’ve been u…
😏💕 it was me… we went to see an art house movie…
It would’ve been really random. I don’t remember it being a good movie…
Nah. It was okay…
We didn’t make out?!
No, u said for this one we gotta behave… but then when we finished the movie u said it was so boring u’d rather just make out… but u weren’t sure if I was seriously watching the movie… 😅
Oh… were we just holding hands?
Yes.
Did I rest my head on ur shoulder?
Yes.
Did u want to make out?!
YES!!! 🤣 BUT I WAS TRYING TO BEHAVE!!!
Omg why didn’t u just say it?! 🤭💕
I dunno. I was still young and didn’t know what to do. I guess I needed to prove that to myself in that moment. I could still behave if I really wanted to.
Oh… I see… did I say something about it at the time?
U said something like, “if u don’t have any self-control, how can I know that ur not gonna jump into bed with other girls and cheat on me?”
Oh……. 😳
U don’t remember saying it?
It sounds like something I would’ve said… it’s not something I would say these days… but I don’t remember saying it, no… it’s not a very distinct memory…
I don’t know why I remember a song when I think about art house movies…
What song?
I don’t know the name, but the lyrics are like, “cigarettes and chocolate milk…”
?!?!
Hang on lemme google…
Rufus Wainwright, oh yeah it is called “Cigarettes and chocolate milk” — it’s not a good memory tho.
Why not?
Because a really creepy guy introduced me to that song…
Huh?!
Back in the days of MSN Messenger… I think he was just bored and so was I and we somehow were chatting about music and he suggested this song and it still made me think, he’s kinda weird and not in a good way…
U don’t like the song?
I don’t mind it as a piece of music and art… but the context of the way it was sent to me…
And I don’t know why I associate it with art house movies…
There was a lot of smoking in the movie we watched. It was like a French movie with cigarettes and checkered patterned tables and coffee…
Oh….. did I tell u about the song at the time?
No. This is the first time I’ve even learned about this song — which is also surprising to me!
Oh it’s just the type of song that would’ve been played on Aussie radio Triple J at the time…
It would have? This was an Aussie guy that sent u the song?
Mmmm… creepy Aussie guy. Let’s keep emphasising that.
U had such a weird reaction to that movie, I thought it was me!? That I was the problem?!
Sigh…
I didn’t know how to talk about it…
Do u feel more okay to talk about it now?
To this extent for the public blog.
We can talk way more in person…
Oh… how creepy was he?
Sigh… we were all teenagers at the time.. it’s all in the past now…
Oh… would the mutual friends know? 👀
Only the crazy ones with laser sharp memories?
Lol… 😅
I don’t expect these things to take up their memory brain cells… they have their own lives now…
Uhuh…
Did u like the movie?
It wasn’t that great but it wasn’t that bad in the way u reacted at the time…
But why would u take it personally if we were holding hands and I’m resting my head on ur shoulder?
I just thought it was my fault. I picked a dumb movie. We could’ve had a better time making out in the park or something but I kinda forced us to sit thru a movie u didn’t even like…
I liked sitting with you — it didn’t matter what movie… ❤️
But u couldn’t talk about why the movie was triggering at the time?
No… I’ve since learned to be a lot more self-aware and talk it out better, even with friends. I can acknowledge that. If there are triggers, I’m much better at talking about it…
That’s good to know…
Uhuh…
🥴…
I liked the song, but I also felt, “my mother wouldn’t want me to like this song…”
😅 Ur mother?!
It’s a song about addiction?! That’s a tough subject for my family…
Uhuh…
I’m still wondering in what context a creepy guy is gonna send u that song?
He was trying to apologise for being creepy. He was trying to be “just a friend”…
🙄 oh… now I get it…
I think I’ve blocked this person on LinkedIn or we’re definitely not connected on there these days…
Right…….
Why did he think u would like that song tho? And u do like it?
I don’t mind it…
I have other Aussie friends growing up who listened to Triple J and was into that sort of music… it was a little nostalgic, reminded me of some high school friends…
Oh. Is that all?
Yes.
Okay…
R u sure?
Yeah… (Shrugs shoulders) u’ve blocked him on LinkedIn, or at least not connected…
U guys have the same star sign.
We do?!
Lol….. it’s a fine line between creepy and “I love u, ur my soul mate….”
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