My Love — when did you used to smoke?
Didn’t I tell you?!
No… I only know from mutual friends… and photographic evidence…
OMG — DESTROY THE EVIDENCE!!!
Neverrr!!! (side-eyes!!!)
Well, when were those photos dated?
Early 2000s…
Uhuh… yeah…
But you stopped before you met me.
Yeah… maybe about a year or so before we met? Maybe? I can’t remember exactly.
What happened?
I got Bronchitis.
Oh? That’s the reason you stopped?
Yes — it felt like an assault on my lungs.
But people get Bronchitis even if they don’t smoke.
Well it was simultaneously being in Melbourne, the bitter Melbroune cold weather, smoking, getting Bronchitis — deciding, “Fuck this, I’m not smoking anymore.” Because I wanted my lungs to heal and I didn’t want to continue inhaling toxins that would cause further harm.
That’s the only reason?
That was the biggest reason… plus when my mother found out she gave me an earful about smoking as well…
But you were technically an adult…
True…
Why did you want to start in the first place?!
I don’t know… maybe I was “too good” in middle and high school? Maybe I just needed a few months of rebellion?
Just a few months?
It wouldn’t have been more than that… it wasn’t that long at all. I don’t think I got addicted in any way… I’m not even friends anymore with the friends at the time who used to smoke A LOT and probably influenced that habit…
Which friends?
Friends that disapproved of you!
Oh?!
They made stupid jokes about us… I was embarrassed…
Why?
Because they’re assholes. That’s why we’re not friends anymore.
Ahh… hmmm…
You’re still wondering which “friends” — ?
Yeah?
More on the peripheries of the Taiwanese friends circles…
Oh?
Yeah… they’re not important people.
But you used to hang out and smoke with them… and even told them about me?
Yeah?! You know why?! Because they were “pretty” girls — they always got whatever guys. They always got guys attentions. They always acted like Miss Bitch Queens. And you know what?! Their lives are absolutely miserable now! They’re married to husbands who are bored with them, drowning in babies and cultural obligations — THEIR LIVES SUCK!
Ohhh… (chuckles)…
This is not my actual friends — friends who are also married and drowning in babies — they have loving, supportive husbands.
THOSE BITCHES — have husbands who are BORED OF THEM.
Uhuh…
It’s a fictional accusation…
(LOL)…
Those were the friends that my mother said, “You need to be friends with people who LIFT YOU UP — not DRAG YOU DOWN!” — that was instilled in me with the smoking and Bronchitis — stay away from those friends!
But yes I still kept in touch with them a little bit but I stopped smoking…
And when I moved away from Melbourne we just naturally lost touch. They didn’t even bother keeping in touch with me. That really showed their true colours… It was a friendship of convenience at the time…
But my smoking is a trigger — if you ever see me smoking, now it’s a trigger?
Please don’t smoke… even not in front of me…
I know, I have stopped. I am just wondering…
(Sigh) — you know the most ironic part of all of this was my grandfather smoked for decades…
WHAT??!?!?!?!?
Yeah… well into his 70s… but… then he got cancer… towards his final chapter…
Oh…
He only quit because of cancer…
I see…
So my mother — very sensitive about these topics — it’s very touchy. Don’t bring it up… unless she brings it up then you can reply to her, but just don’t bring it up out of nowhere…
(LOL)… I can’t imagine ANY situation where I’m going to suddenly say to your mother, “OH! LET’S TALK ABOUT SMOKING!!!”
Lollll… I know…. but I’m just sayingggggg~~~~
(Chuckles)…
Okay. Is that enough for now?
(Nodding, smiling, accepting)…
Love you ❤
Love you too… xoxoxoxox ^__^ ❤ ❤ ❤
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