Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

OK, I didn’t end up watching the rom com for the third time… I am now watching… Khloe Kardashian’s 40th birthday party episode…

(LOLOL)… Is it good?!?!?!

It’s okay… but it’s making me think about MY 40th birthday…

Do you want a party like her party?!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT IS SO NOT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are you sure?!

It’s not me anymore. It’s very much NOT me. I can’t imagine having any fun at a party like that. Snoop Dogg is cool tho. But I wouldn’t want Snoop Dogg to show up for no reason at my 40th birthday, no, that’s kinda insane.

(Making notes)… (How… to… book… Snoop Dogg… for girlfriend’s… birthday)…

I SAID I DON’T WANT THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are you sure?!?!?! I can’t tell anymore! Are you writing fiction or daydreaming?!?!?!

I do NOT want Snoop Dogg to show up at my birthday!!!

I think I just want something more intimate… I don’t know if I even want ANY family or friends around?! I think I just want US TWO?!!?!?

Awww………… (Still thinking about whether or not this is the best idea)……………..

I think it can be a little triggering to be surprised with a surprise party for that age…

Oh?

Yeah… please… don’t… I’m not kidding……….

Oh… (putting the notes down)…………..

I probably would enjoy like, small separate dinner parties…

Small separate dinner parties?

Yes, dinner parties, brunches, etc — because I have different groups of friends. It’ll be easier to just catch up with everyone in their separate groups and for different meals or hang outs.

Uhuh…

Maybe that’ll even be the first “round” of meetings — “Here’s my new boyfriend!!! FERNANDO!”

(LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL)… hmm… so I am being introduced as Fernando……

Right?!?!?!

Ooh — I am looking forward to the next episode!

What’s the next episode?

The really rich Indian wedding…

Uhuh…

I did follow that wedding on social media! Okay — Kardashians got ONE THING RIGHT this season… hopefully… hope it’s a good episode!

(LOL)…

Anyway… it feels so far away. I can’t really focus on it right now… I care more about… our next few months…

Uhuh…

Maybe we need to have a birthday dinner with my mother.

Birthday dinner with your mother.

Yes… and she’ll want vegetarian…

Do you want me to find a nice restaurant?

She’s very fussy these days…. I don’t know… we’ll have to confirm all this closer to the date.

Okay…

Or maybe she doesn’t want dinner. Maybe it is birthday lunch. Birthday lunch with Mum.

(Nodding) — I’m not writing anything down because I have a feeling it’s gonna change…

Yeah. Probably… see?! I can’t plan my birthday this early in the year.

That’s okay — I’m just wondering, do we still want Snoop Dogg?!?!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, okay. So I really just… not include him?

OF COURSE NOT!!! I meant that it was cool for KHLOE KARDASHIAN to have Snoop Dogg at HER birthday! Doesn’t mean that I want him at MY birthday!

Ahh… okay… (finally, deleting this from his notes!!!)

Okay… well I can tell you a birthday story?

Sure!

Umm… I forgot which birthday it was… but I did have a birthday one year… at the botanical gardens… it was like a picnic/bbq… and I forgot who I invited… but some high school friends showed up… and some Naturopath friends…

And then, out of nowhere, one friend who lived in Sydney, who didn’t even RESPOND to my invitation?! Like I just thought she GHOSTED ME — suddenly showed up! And was like “Surprise!!! I’m here for YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!”

(LOLOLOLOLOLOL) — AND YOU KEEP SAYING YOU DON’T LIKE SURPRISES!!!

Okay fine. I like them if they’re done WELL. I don’t like them if they give me ANXIETY!!!

How did she do it so well?!?!

I don’t know??!?! Maybe I just believed that she ghosted me!?!?! Is that supposed to be a good thing?!?!? I DON’T THINK THAT’S SUPPOSED TO BE A GOOD THING.

Please don’t do that to me! My heart won’t be able to take it!

(Chuckles)… (Thinking about this…)…. yeah, you’re right. I won’t do that to you…

Right?!?!?!?!

Because if I ghost you, that means that you’ll probably ghost me — we’re not going through THAT AGAIN for another DECADE!!!

Thank you… yeah… it worked for that friend — but WE can’t do that!!! We cannot start a new relationship again and do those types of surprises!!!

No. I agree. I wouldn’t want you to do that to me either.

Great! So we agree on that…

(Nodding)…

I actually wonder if she genuinely ghosted me but she happened to come back to Gold Coast that weekend for other reasons and then the other friends BUGGED her to just COME TO MY BIRTHDAY anyway….

(LOL) — You think so!?!?!!?!

I DON’T KNOW!!! >.<

Maybe she just didn’t want to say “yes” she was coming if she couldn’t make it and then decided to ghost you and surprise you if she COULD make it…

I think that’s what she said as her explanation… yeah….

(Chuckles)

But YOU’RE not allowed to do that to me!!!

Yes, yes I agree… and same the other way around. You’re NOT allowed to do that to me!

Yeah… I won’t…

Good!

(LOL)…………….

What do YOU wanna do for YOUR birthday?

(Smiles)… I just wanna see you…

Okay? I haven’t even checked any calendars but… I promise, if you’re in Australia, you’ll get to see me.

That’s all I need to hear.

Mmm-hmmm…. but what else?!

Whatever you wanna do, baby…

It’s YOUR birthday and you want ME to decide what we’re going to do on YOUR birthday?!

(Smiling, nodding)…

Don’t you have to like, video-call your parents or something on the day?

(Shaking his head) Not really…

(Are you for real?!?!) Surely you have to set aside TIME to VIDEO CALL your own PARENTS on YOUR BIRTHDAY?!?!?!!?

Do you really have this habit of calling or having dinner with your parents every year on your birthday?!?!

Yes…?!?!? It’s called FILIAL PIETY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!

(Eyes bigger but like — I can’t even describe his expression right now! It’s like, “Oh well… if THAT’S what it is….”)

… I’m sure this is also a part of your culture…

It is… but I don’t always agree with it……….

OH MY GOD. RESPECT YOUR PARENTS.

(Chuckles)….

Do I get to meet your mother on your birthday?

NOOOOOOOOO………………

Why not?!?!?! Am I not your FIANCE?!?!?! AREN’T WE SUPPOSED TO GET MARRIED?!?!?!

(Deep breaths)… it’s just… not the right timing………

Then when!?!?! When will be the right timing?!?!?!?!

We’ll talk about all that later… it won’t be the right timing on my birthday this year…

Okay…………

Are you upset?

No…

I don’t want you to feel upset…

I’m not upset… I’m just accepting that — for some reason — it’s kind of awkward with you and your parents. And I never get to know why. You never explain why. And you always avoid actually explaining anything…

It’s just not the right timing. I will explain — later… in our relationship, I promise…

Before our wedding?! Do I at least get to know more about your parents before we’re MARRIED?!?!?!

(Nodding) Yes… you will… I just… I need to focus on US first — let’s focus on US — let’s not talk about meeting parents or ruining our HONEYMOON PHASE with too much talk about our parents, please?!

Okay……………..

Are you really ok with it?

Well — I feel like I talk about my parents a lot……….

I don’t mind you talking about your parents…

Oh so it’s just YOUR parents — you don’t want to talk about them during these initial phases…

Yeah. I’d prefer not to talk about them too much… let’s just talk about us — and whenever you want to tell me about your parents, that’s fine as well. I’m happy to learn more about your parents.

THAT’S HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOUR PARENTS! IF YOU WANT TO SHARE AND TALK ABOUT THEM, OF COURSE I’M HAPPY TO LEARN MORE!!!

(Deep sighs)… but I don’t want to talk about them, I think it brings our mood DOWN…

Umm…?

Let’s not talk about them. I don’t want to talk about them that much — not initially. Can we please agree on this?

Yeah…. we can…

Good.

Good?

Yes. I’m much more comfortable about this now.

(Chuckles)… how did we go from KHLOE KARDASHIAN’S 40TH BIRTHDAY CONVERSATION TO THIS?!?!?!

(LOLOLOLOLOL)… what else do you want to talk about?!

Nothing right now… I think I’m winding down…

Okay. Good night. Sweety Pie. Love Muffin.

(Chuckles)…. good night… I love you…

I LOVE YOU MORE.

Yes… you do… xoxoxoxoxoxxx