You’re very much awake…
I am… I just felt like, my body felt like, it needed a protein shake or something…
You’re having a protein shake right now as you’re typing?!?!
No… I already drank it… I needed a protein shake…
Protein shake and coconut water?
No coconut water… not even milk, I didn’t buy any milk at Costco… so it was just protein powder and water…
(Making notes)… Protein powders… afterwards…
(LOLOLOLOL) You don’t need to “make notes” — you’re surrounded by protein powder all the time!!!
(Smiles) Yeah… (Giggles)… but it makes me happy knowing that I’ll be equipped… for you…
I don’t know why I’m awake. I think because you still have questions…
I do… I have A LOT OF QUESTIONS…
What is your question?
I want to know… the exact make and model of the tool… that you’re using… with the different settings…
(Shaking head) That’s not for the public blog.
Why not?!?!!?!?!? (Pouty face)…
Babe — no.
Pleeease?!?!?!
No! That’s where I’m drawing a line. I can write poems, I can give some descriptions. I can fictionalise these “visions” — I’m not spelling out an exact make or model.
You talk about so many other things! You literally typed out your whole shopping trip to Costco and exactly what you bought! You can’t just give us the make and model of the tool that you’re using??!?!
That’s different………………… and you know it……………………………
I just… I really want to know…………. and nobody else would tell me because I know you’re not going to talk about it with any other friends………..
TRUE — I’m not talking about it with any other friends. I’m not even going to spell it out for the blog!
But HOW WILL I LEARN?!?!!? HOW WILL I PRACTICE BEFORE I COME SEE YOU?!?!!?
(Sigh)…………………
I don’t think we’re even using this exact tool… when it’s us…………………
You don’t think so?!?!!? (Confused)……….
Baby — YOU’RE my… “tool” — we don’t need a “tool” —
Yes we do. Actually, we need a tool. I would rather we have the tool. Just bring it with you, please…
(I… can’t even take this conversation seriously right now)……………………………. lololololol…………………..
I WANT TO BUY THE TOOL.
(LOLOLOLOLOL)…. I can’t………………
PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No………….. it’s not happening. I’m not spelling it out on here.
Oh my GOD — THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING!!!
Even if you don’t want to be the “sole responsibility” when it’s just us…. I still have a feeling, we’ll be exploring… other tools… you can simply, buy your own tools… and we’ll explore them, together…
You think so?
Yes… let me just keep mine to myself… for when you’re not physically here…
But I don’t know which settings to memorise. Other tools have other settings.
So… memorise those settings… we can explore them, together… I know — with familiarity — what sensations — different settings will make.
It doesn’t really matter, which “make or model” of the tool…
Does that make sense?
… … … (His brain is trying to compute but not quite getting it)… … …
Just pick your own tools. We’ll explore them together.
But I don’t FULLY UNDERSTAND — what SETTINGS — you’re TALKING ABOUT…
Well you’ll just have to live with that mystery, my dear…
?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!
The mysteries will be revealed… in real life… (smiles)…
That doesn’t help boost my confidence…
It’s okay… you said you’d come towards me with 95% confidence… those mysteries make up that 5% unknown…
They do?
(Nodding)… yeah… once you’ve decided on your hair colour… I think you’re getting pretty close to 95%…
I wanna hug you right now………………………
Me too. I wish I could have your hug right now.
I love you…
I love you too… xoxoxooxxx
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