You’re having breakfast, baby?
I’ve made it… I’m not that hungry yet…
What did you make?
Just a toasted sandwich…
When do you have to go to class?
Soon…
I’m missing you already…
I know…
What do you think is really happening to me? In real time? In real life?
I think that… it was a mental health day… or a mental health absence… I think the public narrative was necessary because of… cultural reasons that I can never full grasp?
You think if it was in Australia I could just say, “Hey guys, I need a mental health day” and that’s it?
Mmm… Australians… if they were just working for a company and say, they already had a diagnosis — ADHD? ASD? Anything like that? — Usually they will just be very upfront about it, “I need a mental health day” and that’s it… (shrugs shoulders)…
That’s been your experience?
Yes… with other co-workers… it hasn’t been a big deal… they get to take their mental health days…
Hmmm….
I feel like… you might just end up lurking “in my orbit” at the Billie Eilish concert…
(Smiles) You really think so?
Yes — but it’s not stalking. People might think, “Girl, RUN!!! He’s a STALKER!!!”
(LOLOLOLOLOL)
But I do… understand now… somewhat… I think?
What do you understand?
I can understand that — because it’s been so long for us — you can’t just “appear” even if you want to. A part of you wants to — but another part of you is like — I need to ease myself into this — I need to… just watch her… just a little bit more… just getting your bearings — even just “existing” like a normal… civilian?!
Existing like a normal civilian…
Yeah — when you count the days that you’ve actually gotten to be that — in a 365 days year — you haven’t actually had that much time. If your life is like severance — if you’re severed from your stardom — you don’t have that many days of being a “normal person” in a 365 days year.
Hmm…
And if you WERE a “normal” person — which you used to be, when we first met in Melbourne — even then, you needed to “stalk” me at the book store!
It’s not stalking! — I’m not lurking around you with that kind of energy!!!
Yeah — it’s not stalking… you’re just kind of… shy…
Yes, I’m shy…
Ironically, you are very shy in real life…
(Shy emoji)…
People don’t realise how shy you are… when things really matter… situations that matter… you’re hesitant, you’re shy, you’re overthinking things…
That’s why ACTING is EASIER — because it’s not REAL LIFE!!!
Yeah… the stage is like… a controlled environment… even vlogging — whatever scripts that are organised — there’s guardrails, there’s predictability… it’s a relatively controlled situation… even if you’re improvising for comedy, it’s still — you feel like you’re in control of that situation…
Yes… that’s one way to put it…
But dating?!?! Chasing?!?!!? Flirting with ME?!?!!? — Oh no — how are you going to do THAT?!?!? In REAL LIFE?!?!?!?
^0^ It’s too nerve wracking! I don’t know how to do it!!!
Babe… you can’t do it wrong anymore… okay?
I can’t???
No… What’s happened in our past is forgiven… and mostly forgotten…
Mostly forgotten?
Okay, it’s not forgotten, but it is forgiven.
It is forgiven?
Yes.
How do you know, you won’t freak out again?
Because… you’re not going to be like that again — are you?
No… I won’t be like that again…
I do think your frontal lobe has developed. I’ve written about this — I’m sure.
Yeah… but I still like to have reminders…
I don’t know how you’re going to be around me at Billie Eilish?! I don’t even have very good seats? I’m like in her nosebleeds as well… I wanted to be… at a safe distance…
That’s how I feel about you right now — I want to be close to you — but also at a safe distance…
Safe for who?!
For you…
Me?!?!?!!?
Yes… it’s just not the right timing… yet…
But you’re incognito…
Yes…
I’m not sensing crazy fans…
You’re not?
No… I don’t think you have those in your orbit… not since the pandemic, I’ve already written this.
You still believe it?
Yes. I still believe it.
Why?
Because… (shrugs shoulders)… there’s other… “new and shiny” people in the industry…
(LOL) — Yes — there is…
You’re not retiring yet — you’re not Travis Kelce — allegedly —
(LOL)…
But you just needed this… for now… just a few weeks? Maybe?
Maybe…
Are the Bros checking in on you?
Yes — one of them wants to come with me to Billie Eilish —
That’s just FOR Billie Eilish, that’s not for monitoring you and me…
(LOL) — Yeah — it’s HIS mental health day too!!! He wants to go see Billie Eilish!!! ^0^
^0^ (LOLOLOLOL) Y’all couldn’t have seen her in ANY OTHER COUNTRY?!?!?!
(LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL) — Well… it just so happens to be… this timing… these coincidences…
Okay… well… I guess I really have to go…
What?!?! You were almost not going to go?!?!!?
You know me… sometimes… I just cancel at the last minute, if I’m not feeling it…
THIS IS WHY I AM SO SHY AROUND YOU — YOU’RE NOT PREDICTABLE!!! NOT ALWAYS!!! IT’S HARD FOR ME TO CONTROL!!!
You don’t need to “control” — Babe, I just want you — to exist — with me — just as you are… does that make sense?!!?!?
Yes — logically — yes. I know — mentally — but emotionally — I’m still shy… (shy emoji)…
Okay. You take your time… but we’re getting married this year. At the courthouse. Take your time but that’s also the deadline.
Deadlines…….
Yes!!! I don’t want to wait another year — we’re getting married THIS YEAR. Courthouse married. Not the circus wedding.
Okay… (shy emoji)…
Alright, I’m starting to feel hungry enough to eat my breakfast…
I miss you I love you — I’m GOING TO MARRY YOU —
I know… I miss you and love you too…
Are you going to say “Yes” when I propose?
(Nodding) (Smiling)…
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