Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Are you going to go back to talking about the green-eyed boy from high school?

(Chuckles)… didn’t we finish talking about that?!

No?! I don’t think so?!!?! It was abruptly ended!

Okay… ummm… what else do you want to know?

What else can you tell me?!?!?! Or the blog?!?!?!

Ummm… I think he was a soloist in the choir?

Oh? Were you?

No… I didn’t volunteer to do that, and the teacher didn’t select me as a soloist, either… I didn’t want that clout…

But… I did also see him… at other Solo competitions…

What do you mean other Solo competitions?

Well — we had the choir competitions — but we also had Solo and even Duet competitions. I was also in Solo and Duet competitions.

Duets?

Yeah. I had a duet with another girl… SHE’S actually a lawyer now! For reals. We’re still friends. (LOL).

So many fuckin’ lawyers?!?!?! WHY ARE THERE SO MANY LAWYER CHARACTERS IN THIS BLOG?!!?!?!?

(Chuckles) I don’t know?!?! Because I was a literature nerd as well?!?! And so were a lot of my friends?!?! And literature nerds mostly end up being LAWYERS?!?!?! Because they’re good at ENGLISH!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

(lolollolololollll)

Imagine if Taylor Swift was a lawyer — my gosh — she really could be PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES.

(LOLOLOLOLOLOLLLLLLLL)

Okay anyway, so yeah! He was around… even though he didn’t go to the Boys School… he was amongst the 5 or 6 other local private schools that have a pretty good reputation around the Gold Coast…

5 or 6 other schools?

Yeah… something like that… my brother went to one of them, too… other private schools, but they were co-ed private schools…

So… what about it?

Well… I don’t know… (shrugs shoulders)… did he bring SHAME to his school for not winning!? For being a soloist and still — NOT winning?!?!

(Chuckles) Yeah, probably. You girls emasculated him.

(LOLOLOLOLOLOL) Well… there was talks like, “Why did he shake her hand?! Did his voice crack during that solo part?! Is he suddenly getting distracted?!?!!?” — It was WEIRD!!!

Ohhh… so you DISTRACTED HIM — THAT WAS YOUR TEACHER’S STRATEGY!!!

(Cackling) — The teachers had absolutely NOTHING to do with ANY of this. Leave the teachers out of it. It’s just the teenagers gossiping amongst themselves. Fictitiously. None of this actually happened in real life. It’s just my imagination in the blog.

Okay — so in this fictional narrative — you distracted him. Maybe his school was good enough to win. In fact I BELIEVE his school was just as good enough to win — but YOU and the girls, you AMONGST the girls — you distracted him!!! — His voice CRACKED?!?! For a boy who’s already 15? 16? 17?!?! Selected to BE the Soloist for his school’s choir?!?!? — YOU DISTRACTED HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Chuckles)… I don’t know about that… people get stage fright regardless… especially in high school… there’d be so many reasons for a voice crack, even with GIRLS — it’s not just a boy problem when singing………..

Anyway — so how often did you see him at those competitions?

I can’t remember…

HOW OFTEN?!?!?!?

(LOL)… Maybe, a few times a year… those competitions… I think?! (Shrugs shoulders)…

Ohhhh now I remember… and then, there was a local musical production…

A local musical production?

Yes, and you had to audition and there were girls and boys from many schools that auditioned, and I couldn’t be bothered — I’m not aspiring to be in musicals — but some of my FRIENDS auditioned and the ONE GIRL WHO GOT THE GIG — HAD TO BOAST ABOUT IT LIKE SHE’S THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD AND WHO GIVES A FUCK ABOUT MUSICALS I DON’T FUCKING CARE THAT YOU GOT INTO THAT FUCKING MUSICAL SO YOU CAN JUST SHUCK THE FUCK UP ABOUT IT EVERY FUCKING SCHOOL LUNCH BREAK YOU BEEEEEEEEP!!!!!

(LOLOLLOLLLOLOLOLOLOL)

Yeah so like — she became friends with more of that guy’s groups of friends, there were some connections — between the schools — because of that local musical production. We are all adjacent to the central circle of people who got cast in that local musical. But we didn’t fully mingle — UNLESS you went to the “popular kids” house parties — WHICH I DID NOT!!! I’M NOT POPULAR AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON’T GIVE A FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(LOLOLOLOLOL) So why did that boy get your ICQ? How did he do that!? Was he at those house parties?!?!?!

You know what? I think he actually wasn’t… he was like… “mysterious” — even to the popular girls. Because he’s SO TEXTBOOK “GOOD LOOKING” — I think his MUM encouraged him to get the spray tan!??! Maybe he didn’t even want to do it?!?! He’s more SHY by nature — that’s why JOE ALWYN really reminds me of him!!!

He got invited to EVERY POPULAR PERSON’S PARTY — but he didn’t want to go?!?!!? He couldn’t be bothered?!?!?!?

This is a totally fictionalised narrative in your imagination, isn’t it?

Yeah. 100%. I mean, I probably could’ve written this character as having “purple” eyes — it’s totally a made-up character in my mind… it’s just that purple eyes aren’t humanly possible?!?!?!!?

Who are these “popular” people?! What’s your definition of “popular” in an Australian high school… private school…?

(Sigh) — The BROS who played RUGBY — the GIRLS who were their GIRLFRIENDS — (eye-rolling) — it’s always about the fuckin’ RUGBY!!!

Had you ever been to a rugby game?

Yes. I got dragged along — ONCE — by one of the besties at the time — miraculously — she also felt like a “nerd” and was surprised one of the rugby boys wanted to date her and all of a sudden she needed me to go with her because she’s never been a “rugby girlfriend” before and I too was like, fuckin surprised by this turn of events — “WHAT THE HELL ARE WE DOING AT A RUGBY GAME?! WE DON’T FIT IN WITH THESE PEOPLE” — We’re literally like DARIA AND JANE (from the MTV Show “Daria!!!”) — but SHE was suddenly HIS GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh?!?! What does that mean?!?!!

It MEANS — her status — ELEVATED!!! The POPULAR GIRLS — looked her up and down, “Okay, you’re one of US now –” but then they look at me, “What the fuck is she doing here?!” — The nerdy introvert friend tagalong… it’s like they “tolerated” our presence — because THAT GUY liked MY FRIEND enough to be like “SHE’S MY GIRLFRIEND!!!” And she got to GO TO THE RUGBY GAME and bring her friend along!!!

(LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL)

Anyway she broke up with him after like, two weeks or something and we have never ever talked again about the time that we somehow ended up at an Australian high school rugby game on a random Saturday morning.

(LOLOLOLOL) — Okay that was hilarious, but what happened to the green-eyed boy!??!?!

Okay so my point is — he’s SHY too — he wasn’t just a “rugby guy”!!! So, I don’t know?! He found me on ICQ?!??!

Wasn’t there some other guy who also messaged you on ICQ?!

These are slightly different timelines. There is a very narrow window here between MIDDLE school and SENIOR SCHOOL —

Right……….. okay……………?!

The Middle School Scorpio Boy was long given up on by now.

Oh… okay…

But Senior School is definitely more pressure academically, too. I wouldn’t be surprised if even his parents — even though they’re Aussies — were like, “Get into a good university! Don’t worry about musicals SO MUCH — you should focus on getting good grades!” Hence, why, I wouldn’t be surprised, if he’s actually a lawyer by now, instead of being on stage somewhere… evidently, not in Australian popular media right now… no presence…

Hmmm… I see… so he just messaged you and you friend-zoned him.

I guess so?!?!?! I mean — my mother would walk into my room every 20 minutes, “Who are you typing to?!!?! Are you doing homework?!?!” — And then I would explain it’s just a boy who is a friend — and she permitted it, at the time.

Oh?

Yeah, I’ve even asked her about this later in life. Like mid-20s, I asked her, why she allowed this?! And she explained, “Because you went to an all girls school. I didn’t want you to DATE any boys, but just chatting to them is fine. I still want you to be “normal” enough that when you go to university boys aren’t like this totally foreign entity” — something like that, in Mandarin…

(LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL)

Anyway I don’t even remember what we talked about. I think it got to the point sometimes I was genuinely conscious of the time that I needed to actually go do homework and he agreed and we both logged off ICQ to do our homework!?!?!?

(LOL) — Okay, yeah, he’s a nerd…

He WAS such a nerd! But CURSED with good looks and the attention that it brings?!?!? He was such an introverted nerd, deep down!

(Eye-rolling) Ohhh POOR BOY that got “CURSED” with NATURAL BORN GOOD LOOKS…

Was it natural though?! Is a spray-tan natural?!!?!?!?

That’s the least of it. I’m sure — if he looks like Joe Alwyn — it’s NATURAL BORN GOOD LOOKS!!!

(Giggles)… Anyway… maybe it wasn’t even him?! Maybe it was someone PRETENDING TO BE HIM — on ICQ — I would have NO WAY OF EVER KNOWING. The internet was even MORE RANDOM back then!!! As if we could tell?!?! Really!??!?!?!?!!? I have no way of verifying my memories or my imagination of this fictional character.

Right… I see… so none of this actually happened.

Nope. My darling. It didn’t exist!

Maybe there really was once a green-eyed boy, a really good looking one… but other than that, this is all fiction.

Why does he have to have GREEN EYES — didn’t you ever have a crush on anyone with BLUE eyes…?

… … … I don’t need to tell the blog about that… … …

(LOLOLOLOL) — TELL THEM!!! PLEASE!!!

NO!!! SINCE YOU ALREADY KNOW IT — I DON’T HAVE TO TALK ABOUT IT PUBLICLY!!!!!!

I don’t know what you think I think I know?!!?!?!?!!?

(Deep sighs)… we’re not going into this… today… I need to take a nap. I’m tired.

HOW MANY BOYS did you have a “CRUSH” on during HIGH SCHOOL?!!?!?!?

Oh my god — for the narratives in this blog — ONLY TWO! EVER!!!!!!

Why do you have to say “for the narratives” —

Because — some things — don’t have to be in the blog!!! Okay?!?!?! Some things — YOU ALREADY KNOW!!! I DEFINITELY REMEMBERING TELLING YOU ANYWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!