Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

You had a nightmare, baby?

No, not exactly a nightmare… but it was a weird dream…

The details now, well, it doesn’t even make sense when I think about now that I’m awake and typing this… but the message of the dream, overall, was that… you’d love to have me there — with you — wherever you are in the world.

That’s what you really want. If you were allowed to have your way…

Well… I can’t lie and say that I’ve never had that thought… I think about that scenario all the time… “oh if only she was here right now…”

But do you see how for me, it’d be like, I have nothing else to do? I’d just be in a hotel room waiting around for u, everyday?

Ohhh… that sounds like the BEST DAY!

Yeah… I can see how that would be nice from your perspective…

“But…?”

But… well… what would I be doing at the Hotel? Just online shopping or playing games?

Sure! If that’s what you wanna do…

Hmm… I think that sounds like it would be nice for a few days but I’d quickly get sick of it…

You think so?

Yeah… I mean, I haven’t even been through a covid hotel room quarantine but when we had a 4 day lockdown in Queensland I was already going a little sitr crazy…

Really?! Only 4 days?! You’ve never had to do a 2 weeks quarantine in a hotel?!

That gives me anxiety just thinking about it… it’s like being a little bird being stuck inside a cage…

(Sigh)

Would you even respect me anymore if I really did that?

Some of the other WAGs already do that…

That’s them. I don’t have time to care or analyse other people’s relationships. I just know for us, eventually you might even start getting bored of me…

I could NEVER get bored of you…

Yeah but you’re saying that now because I am who I am. Because I go off and do the things that I do. If I was stuck in a hotel room waiting for you everyday, though, I do think… eventually I’m going to stop being me and you’re going to notice a difference… you might even have a wandering eye yourself because I’m just there — all the time — waiting for you…

You think so?! You think I’m capable of that wandering eye?

If I’m stuck in a hotel room all day waiting for you… for a length of time that’s longer than a 2 weeks quarantine… I believe it’s possible, yes. I probably wouldn’t even recognise myself, eventually…

But for less than two weeks?

Yes, for less than two weeks that’s just a holiday… a break from my regular life… sure, I wouldn’t mind it… every once in a while…

What if we have kids?

That’s very different.

It is?

Yes. The kids will be a handful. We wouldn’t be “stuck in a hotel” I’d have to entertain them while you were busy and we’d all meet up when you’re finished for the day… yeah it’d be totally different if we had kids…

Now that you said that, I’m actually really open to having kids with you…

(Smiles)

If having kids is the only way for me to get that ideal scenario…

But that’s all that it is, right? It’s just a lofty fantasy… in real life, kids are bored and jumping around and asking to go somewhere else…

Yeah… the little shits!!!

(LOL)

When do you think you’ll be happy to take a “holiday” and come hang out at the Hotel with me? When I’m on tour?

I think… realistically?

Maybe… 2026?

You think so? 2026?

Yeah I mean… we’d be courthouse married by then, right? And if I’m in uni… there’s definitely gonna be semester breaks of up to 2 or 3 weeks when I can just join you, wherever you are, and it’ll be nice. Yeah. I wouldn’t mind it as a 2 or 3 weeks break from uni…

You don’t want to do that, during uni?

No… it’s not realistic… I can’t juggle everything. I know some women can, but honestly, I already know me enough by now to know that I couldn’t really do it…

Plus I’d rather stay at our “nest” during that time to take care of the main property. Or oversee the maintenance and delegation of staff tasks to the main properties…? Multiple properties that I’ll have to worry about once we’re really married?

(Nodding)

Who’s worrying about those properties now?

Mostly me… and… older brother… but he’s getting really sick of it. He’s got his own family to worry about…

Yeah that’s understandable… why are you not “good at” worrying about them yourself? You have 165 IQ…

It’s not that I’m not “good at” it. Yes I know how to do it and I can do it… I just don’t want to. It takes up even more of what little free time I have. And I spend a lot of my free time stalking you… 😏

LOL… stalking or lurking…

Okay, maybe lurking… just catching up on all your writing, anything else you’ve put up on social media... thinking and daydreaming about us…

Wouldn’t the properties also be a part of that? Didn’t I just tell you earlier about watching AD on YouTube and stuff like that?

Yes, and that’s fine. I’m very energised and motivated when it’s stuff like that! There’s just… other stuff… that I’m not so enthused about… paperwork stuff that’s really, really boring…

Sounds like adulting, My Love…

(Chuckles) Is it? Is that what it is?! Just stacks and stacks of paperwork? Even if digital — so many forms to fill out, terms and conditions to read? And then finally give your signature of approval so that the money is released?

(Smiles)… well… not everyone has the same large sums of money to release, but the paperwork part of it… yeah… that’s adulting…

(Sigh) I just want you here to take care of all of that for me.

Is that even wise to give me that much power over your finances and stuff like that? I honestly am not confident that I have that in me, either…

Well — don’t you have a CPA friend? Maybe you can hire her to help us… if that helps?

I don’t know… because I don’t know the actual details of whatever we’re talking about…

I just know that I could possibly draw up some spreadsheets and keep an eye on some things… from the comfort of our own home, our nest. I wouldn’t want to go through those types of things in a hotel, either…

You wouldn’t?!

No… not long term. I mean, if I have to, sure, you can’t help it. You gotta just turn on a laptop while you’re at the Hotel and look at it… but… long term? No… I’d rather take care of those types of things… from the comfort of our own home…

Oh… well… I guess for me right now, I almost forget the difference. Whether I’m with the main lodge with the room mate, or at the Hotel — none of it feels truly like “home” — when I came to see you Incognito… even just for five minutes, I felt like, I was finally “home” — so then I think, if you’re just at the Hotel waiting for me everyday, then I get to feel like I’m home, everyday, when I get back to my hotel room, wherever I am…

Awww babe… that’s so sweet… but also unrealistic… (running fingers through his hair…)

Why? Why is that unrealistic?

Just scroll up and re-read what I’m trying to say about a little bird being stuck in a cage…

(Sigh) okay… yeah. Well, I would never try to force you…

I know… that’s why… in my mind, 2026… uni semester breaks… that feels more realistic. That feels genuinely possible… not this year. Not 2025… but by 2026… when we’ve re-established everything we need to re-establish in real life…

Oh… I see…

Yeah. You’re finally getting it?

(Nodding)

(Smiles) I love you.

I love you too… hey! Have you been writing these last few posts from the app? Just on your phone? In real time?!

(Chuckles) Yeah I think so… why?

I love it. I love seeing the time stamps and seeing when did you actually publish that?

(Chuckles) How can you believe it? How do you know I didn’t schedule them?

Hmm… it’s actually just a feeling… before, when you were writing drafts and then typing them up and eventually publishing, the energies felt more… disjointed? With real time — I’d be checking my World Clock wondering what’s been happening? What’s triggering these thoughts at this time? Then I’d realise it probably wasn’t that time — in real time — that triggered it…

Yeah… but why does it matter? I’m gonna still write drafts sometimes. I’ll still make notes of some works in progress that don’t actually get published in real time…

Yeah but now when you feel the urge to IMMEDIATELY share something — you can! And I can feel that difference. I just know it. I don’t know how to explain it but I just can feel a DIFFERENCE in your writing when that happens…

You like my “real time” publishing much better…

YES…

(Chuckles) Well… (Shrugs shoulders) I don’t know how long this is gonna… be kept up? I’ll just write what I write,  whenever…

Yeah. I don’t want to tell you when or what to write. It’s just that for me, when it’s in real time, it’s such a delight. I can’t explain it very well but I feel so delighted.

Why can’t you explain it? Why don’t you write a song about it?

Hmm… it’s still so recent that you’ve started to write in real time… maybe after a few more days I could start fleshing out a song…

(LOL) okay darling. I’m going back to sleep now… 😴

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