What picture do you have on your phone these days?
🤭 It’s a picture of you… from one of your music videos…
Oh? Which one?
You’re like sitting in a tattoo parlour… the fans just think it’s fake tattoos in the video but it’s actually your real tattoos.
(LOL) So now you’ve seen some of my real tattoos. You realised they were real in that video?
Yeah… and there’s some jewellery that you’re wearing… I realised they were about us… about me?
(Nodding) It’s always about you… inspired by you.
But… why?
Because… you’re my Muse.
Am I?!?!?!??!!
You’re my Muse. My love pours out through all my songs, and the expression of them. Any visual hints or Easter eggs in the videos, it’s all for you…
But if I’m your Muse, why didn’t you just stop smoking, drinking, gambling when your Muse told you to in the first place?
😅😅😅 I don’t know… I was young and dumb…
You had that 165 IQ even when you were young…
You’re right… (Sigh)… I guess I… I self-sabotaged…
Us? Or yourself?
🤔 Hmmmmm……. a little bit of both?
But why us? Self-sabotaging yourself I can understand. Many people trip themselves up all the time. Childhood wounds, triggers, whatever. But why us? Why did you self-sabotage us?
😮💨 I think because… deep down I was agreeing with everyone that you deserved someone “better”……
Why? What was that thought process? Why would you have chased me if you already thought I deserved someone better?
You know, actually there wasn’t those thoughts during the initial chase. There were simply urges and I followed all those urges. No thoughts, just impulse. Full passion. I needed you in my arms, I had no logic to it.
Yeah… I guess not…
But… as time went on… I could see, I was making you upset… and I felt… kind of helpless about it…
Helpless? I thought you talked about everything to Older Brother. I thought you’ve got a huge support system in the mutual friends, even your parents. They’re always willing to help.
Yeah but I had my own shackles. I processed everything on my own. I didn’t talk to anyone about my deepest triggers…
Why not?
I dunno, maybe it’s a guy thing…
Whyyyyyyy…. do men do this to themselves?!
😮💨 I don’t know…
Well maybe when you figure it out you can write a song, Better Man 2.0
😅 You think so?
(Nodding) Yes my love… when you’ve figured it out, you can write that song. I don’t have those answers for you either.
🫂🤗🥰❤️💋💕
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