You feel like listening to Avril Lavigne tonight?
Yes, baby… I’m playing Avril on repeat tonight… but then, I’m also going to go watch some celebrity gossip podcasts or shows like that…
You just need a distraction for your brain? This is how you disconnect? This is your way of “Severance” — ?
(Nodding) Pretty much…
It was only one day? Just one day of the first semester, today?
Yes… it wasn’t even that intense… (Chuckles)
(Puzzled expression) Do you… do you really want to do this?! You know that you don’t NEED to do any of this, right?! You can be my wife. You can be my HOUSEWIFE. You don’t even need to lift a finger. I can provide EVERYTHING.
(Laughing) I know… but… that’s not my reason…
What’s your reason?
Well… I’m clear in my reason…
But…? I feel like there’s a but…
But today I was reminded of some other reasons… which were never “not” my reasons — but maybe I forgot as well… and then, I was reminded of it… I don’t think it was even the teacher or the classmates’ intentions — it’s just me. It’s my own reflections. My own projections? Maybe… but I am just chewing on some things in my subconscious right now… and it has nothing to do with you, it has nothing to do with us… please don’t take ANY of it personally because it really, really is not…
(Nodding) (Digesting)…. Yeah… I think I can understand…
You know this has nothing to do with other guys, right?!
(Pouting/nodding?!) Yes, I actually do. I can FEEL there’s something else… I’m not even jealous anymore! When you said all that about texting your brother and wearing my ring — I’m good. I don’t feel insecure about any of it… but… yeah… your energy tonight… it’s different? And now, you’re listening to Avril? — That’s a very different mood… I can feel it…
(Nodding) Yeah… it’s a different mood…
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Do you have any other way of talking about it?
(Shaking head)…
Not for the public blog?
(Shaking head)…
Will you tell me one day, face to face?
(Nodding)…
(Deep sighs)… (Trying to think of how else to dig)… (Hands on hips)… (A little bit… frustrated?! With himself?!?!)…
You don’t need to do anything about this, My Love — It’s for me to process within.
(Nodding… trying to understand it)…
Remember your charity work?
(Nodding)…
I’m not going to ask you to blog about your charity work, am I?
(Thinking about this)… but I’ve been interviewed about my charity work.
Yeah but that’s still… surface-level interviews… you get what I mean?
(Slowly… nodding…) — (Staring blankly) — Huh….
Mmmmm?
I think I get it…
MMmm-hmmm….. (Nodding)…
Oh….?
(Nodding)…
(Deep sighs) Okay… take your time… watch your gossip shows, listen to Avril…
(Mona-Lisa Smiling) (Eyes tearing)…
(Hug hugs) (Kiss kiss)…
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