Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Did you… used to call me on a landline…?

Yes. You’re starting to remember?

Vaguely…

Then the number stopped working…

We changed the number.

Oh? You didn’t tell the mutual friends?

No… and… you weren’t the reason…

I wasn’t?

No… (Shaking head) Definitely not…

So what happened?

I can’t talk about it on the public blog, but you weren’t the reason that the landline number had to change…

… Really…?

Really…

Will you tell me the real reason face to face?

(Nodding) Yes…

Why didn’t you tell the mutual friends?

The real reason was very stressful for our family… so… I just got caught up in family stuff…

Oh… I’m sorry that happened…

Yeah… and then… I guess life got busy…

I wrote you letters too… you wanted snail mail, I wrote you letters…

You did?

You didn’t get them?

No…? Maybe… my mother checked the mailbox… I don’t know?

Why didn’t you just ask the mutual friends to check up on me?

I did!!!

Oh…

Then they had other updates…

Right…

Some “Taiwanese guy”… that your mother approved of…

Hmm… it’s plausible…

No — it really happened.

I don’t think she would even remember doing that… I don’t think she would do that?!?!?!

What is actually going on in your memory right now?

I think I remember reading a letter…

And?

I don’t know…

Think… HARDER………

I’m going to ask the Tarot cards, I really can’t remember…

Okay, yeah, there was a Singaporean guy.

WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Umm… yeah, I totally forgot about him too by 2025… oops!

A SINGAPOREAN GUY??!?!?!!?!?!?

Nothing happened!!! I think I just met him through some other Taiwanese friends at the time…

And then what?

Literally — nothing. But I got caught up in delulu, but nothing happened. As usual — NOTHING HAPPENED! 99% of these “flirtations” were just that — literally nothing!

I fall for the IDEA of them — they’re taller than you — they seemed like a good alternative option to getting my heart broken by an aspiring genre star — I get to know them a little bit — it turns out, we are completely incompatible. And then I’m steered into a whole other lowered self-esteem spiral. And I lash out in the group chats. And I throw away stuff in fits of rage. And then… I don’t even remember who I am anymore. What do I really want. And it went on like that for… years?! And years, and years… until I was completely lost.

I don’t know — and then, my work — brought me back to Melbourne, some years — so then, there were these minor catch-ups… with mutual friends… these… little hints of reminders… and then…?

I don’t know, Pandemic —

I don’t know, I’m working in a chocolate shop. I’m working in retail —

And then you appeared. Sort of. Incognito… Oddly familiar… made my heart burst.

What happened to my letters?

I don’t know… I really, really don’t know… Maybe they’re just… in a bin somewhere? Or down the bottom of… some other storage containers…

You have storage containers?

I do… for the “We Feel Fine” book — and some other memory items… maybe it is hidden amongst those. Otherwise, it is gone forever… I really don’t know.

Where are the storage containers?

In the house… buried amongst a lot of other clutter…

Would you want to dig it up one day and have a look?

Maybe…? But… not tonight… not right now…?

Why not?

I’ve just showered and I have lavender massage oil on! I feel CLEAN — I don’t want to dig through some corner of clutter in the house…

Hmmm… do you think it will be there?

Probably not… I feel like… maybe I sent it back? Maybe there was other stuff that I sent back as well?

How did that happen?

I don’t know, maybe there was a German guy as well.

A GERMAN GUY?!?!?!!?

(Chuckling) — You’re not actually jealous by now, right?!

(Laughing) Yeah I’m not, I’m just being dramatic.

Right… well… the German guy was VERY TALL — kind of, too tall…

How tall?

Maybe… 190 cm?

(FUCK!)

Well obviously it didn’t turn into ANYTHING anywayssssss…

But he seems to be on your mind, all of a sudden…

We used to talk “on the phone” on Skype.

(Surprised — genuinely)

Didn’t I tell the mutual friends in the group chat?!?!?!

NO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!!?!?!?!?!!

Huh… well probably because it never seemed to progress to anything that was significantly more than friendship…

But he called you? On Skype? What, like every day?

Pretty much… almost every day…

And he was in Germany?

Yes…

There was that time difference?

Yes…

And then…?

And then nothing?! It just faded, I don’t know… long distance didn’t really turn into anything…

What did you two talk about?!

You know what, he was probably just using me to practice English. I don’t think we talked about anything that interesting.

(Chuckling) You think he used you to practice English?

Yeah…? (Allegedly?!?!)

Well did you learn any German from him?

Not… really? Not much…?

(Laughing)

Why is this funny?!?!?!?!

Because… he probably WAS using you to practice English which makes me feel SO MUCH BETTER!!! (LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL)

Okay, yeah, great… so… I forgot about you because I got scammed by a German guy trying to practice his English and he called me on Skype almost every morning…

Do you still have Skype?!

Ugh… I would have to try to log in and see… maybe…? I just searched on my laptop — it’s just there as an app on Windows?

You have a Windows laptop?

Yeah…

Not Mac? Not Apple?!?!

No…

I thought you were like, undying loyalty to Apple…

Not if you’re learning CYBERSECURITY — You need WINDOWS…

Oh? (Shrugs shoulders)

Anyway — I have Skype, I guess?! But do I have an account?! I haven’t tried logging in at all. And if I did — it wouldn’t be the same login as whatever I used back then with the German guy… I probably just need to set up a new login with the current Windows profile…

Right… Hmm… Should I… call you on Skype?!?!

(Laughing) I don’t know?!?!!? Would that be EASIER?!?!?!?!!?

I think… it might be easier than a BARIBE PHONE?!?!?!

(Laughing) I have no idea!!!

Do you trust Windows security?

Well — I can set up some security measures with Windows from what I’ve learned so far — yes…

So then Skype, as an app within Windows…

I’m just gonna ask Google:

Skype uses end-to-end encryption, two-factor authentication, and other security measures to protect user data. Skype also offers tools to help users report abuse, block users, and report security concerns.

Encryption: Skype uses 256-bit Advanced Encryption Standard (AES) encryption, which is also used by the US government.

(Smiles)

We’re not setting this up until we see each other face to face again…