What?! Why are you looking at me like that?!
Was it you?
Was what me?! What are you talking about?!
Did I drunk dial you? Back in the day?
(Trying to hide his smile, trying to be serious, shoulders shaking — giving it away) What?!
Did I… get drunk with the Media Girls one night… and drunk dial you and leave you a voice message?
(Can’t hide the laughter now) (Takes about 5 minutes to laugh) … If you did… what do you think you said in that voice message?
I don’t know… something about love? Something about wanting to get married or something like that?!!?!?!??!!?
(Smiling)
What is the TRUTH here, what happened?!?!?!?!?!
Yes, you were drunk…
Do you still have that voice message saved somewhere?
(Nodding) I have it in my current phone… and another USB back-up……… (LOLOLOLOL)
WHY do you KEEP stuff like THAT!?!?!?!!?!? Oh my god…
I listen to it every night before bed… (smiling) (chuckles)
(Stunned) Was I… slurring my words?!?!?! I would’ve been REALLY DRUNK because I don’t even remember what I said?!?!?!?!
(Laughing to himself….) (For another 5 whole minutes)….
I think I was heartbroken or something, I was so drunk!??!?!? We had “mutually broken up” — ?!?!?!?!
(Nodding)
And then?!?!!? You DIDN’T PICK UP MY CALL?!?!?!!?
Well… (slow blinking… how to explain…) I wasn’t sure if you were going to do what I did to you — like, 300 missed calls…. (Laughing)
Well, I would’ve just called, twice? Maximum? Maybe the first time, you didn’t pick up? And I panicked and hung up… Then the second time — I got the courage to say everything I wanted to say to that voicemail…
(Nodding)
But why didn’t you do anything about it at that time?
Because you were drunk… I could hear that you were drunk, and then I called your housemate to ask where you were. She said you’re out with the Media Girls. I asked where, exactly? She texted you. You texted back. You were at the bar at the SBS building in Federation Square. There’s so many “corporate guys” there. Investment banker or lawyer or whatever kind of guys just all hanging out. And you were there at that bar, with the Media girls?! And then you decided to leave ME the drunk message that you left??!!
What the hell did I say?! I really don’t remember…
What you said was everything I always wanted to hear. But I didn’t want you to say it while you were DRUNK. I wanted you to really say it when you’re sober. When you know what you’re saying… I wanted to earn those words. I’m still TRYING to EARN THOSE WORDS.
(Taken aback) What the fuck…
It’s my lullaby every night… I can’t fall asleep until I hear that message…
WHAT??!?!?!?!?!?!
(Smiling, giving some time to process… holding the space)…
Did I… have I written it by now? In the blog? In Poems2No1?
(Nodding) Yes, I can read it in writing… and I know you’re sober while you’re writing… but I haven’t earned those words, face to face…
Are you sure? I think you’ve earned it…
I don’t feel like I’ve earned them and I haven’t heard them spoken to my face.
Okay…? So…?
I’m planning it. I’m planning how it’s going to happen.
Oh?!?!?!?!
I’ve got my plans… I’m the Man…
Do you know what the Media Girls said to me that gave me the courage to dial? It wasn’t just alcohol…
(?!!?!?!?!?)
They said, “Life is too short. Just tell him how you feel…” — and some other dramatic embellishments that I won’t specify on this blog… but it shook me. They got to me. They really SHOOK it out of me. They hit a nerve. Media Girls know how to communicate. They HIT. THAT. NERVE. And I couldn’t live with myself if I didn’t say it.
But you don’t remember what you said?
I’m not sure… if you wrote my words, word for word, as some Easter eggs in some other songs… scattered across your discography…
Do you really think I would do that?
YES!!! (Laughing) — It’s not in “one” song — it’s across — MULTIPLE. SONGS.
(Chuckling) (Building up to FULL Belly laughter)
Now you have the rich laugh.
(Wide-eyed) Are you mad?! Are you mad that I wrote your words in some songs??!?!?!
(Shaking head) No, I’m not mad… I’m just feeling a lot of emotions right now…
I truly wish I could be there to talk about this face to face — right now.
Yeah… but you’re not… and I don’t know what your exact actions are in real time, as I’m typing this… but I feel like… your auric body is here. Somehow…
Yes. I’m right here. I don’t want to be anywhere else.
But it doesn’t matter…
It doesn’t?
Well, I feel like our path is unravelling… it’s literally in the astrology. I have a lot of planets in Leo. There was something about the transits for Leo the past 16 or 18 years or something like that — Leos are finally “out of the woods” of one of the greatest, longest lengths of time of challenges that they were facing in their lives… it’s like, finally… THE NEW DAWN for LEOS.
I didn’t know I married a Leo… I thought you were a Virgo Woman.
I AM… I am a Virgo Sun, Pisces Moon, Leo Rising. Leo Venus. Leo Mercury. Leo Mars. — Is that enough LEO for you?!?!?!!
That’s called… a Leo Stellium. You’re a Leo Stellium.
Since when did YOU start learning Astrology?!?!
I didn’t!!! THIS CONVERSATION IS IN YOUR IMAGINATION!!!
(Laughing)
What does it mean?
- People with Leo stelliums may have a grandiose energy that’s hard to miss.
- They may be generous, dramatic, and loud.
- They may struggle to find their place when they aren’t the center of attention.
- The attributes of Leo may weigh heavily on their chart.
- The stellium can create a powerful energy that can impact their life path.
Are you sure that you struggle to find your place when you’re not the center of attention?
No. I’m totally fine not being the center of attention, I’m still a Sun in Virgo… but my Venus — the Venus is the relationships planet… maybe, yeah… a little bit… I like to have attention… in relationships… undivided attention when we’re really together. Like — put your phone on silent if you’re having dinner with me. Yes. I would appreciate it very much…
(Nodding) I can do that…
DON’T GET ME STARTED ON THE GUY I WENT ON RANDOM A DATE WITH — WHO DIDN’T EVEN PUT HIS FUCKING PHONE ON SILENT!!!
Woahhhhh… (chuckling so loudly) — What was THAT?!!?!!?
He was FUCKWIT. And I’ll TELL YOU MORE IN PERSON ONE DAY!!!
(Laughing) (Smiling)
Do you love me?!
HOW CAN YOU EVEN ASK THAT?! I SAVED YOUR DRUNK DIALLED VOICEMAIL ALL THESE YEARS AND LISTEN TO IT ON REPEAT JUST TO FALL ASLEEP EVERY NIGHT!!!
Even in 2025?!?!?!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Yes. Even in 2025… but now I also get to… read and scroll… (smiling)
I would like to… replace that voicemail with a better voicemail the next time we meet.
Are you saying I have to let her go? Melbourne Nicole? Drunk Nicole? Melbourne Bitch?
(Nodding) I mean… you can keep the file on the USB… but… you’ll have a new voicemail to listen to. Actually, you’ll have ME to listen to. We can just TALK until you FALL ASLEEP.
Ohhh… (finally, getting it)… (Nodding)… (Smiles)… I would much rather have that…
Yes… exactly!!!
I love you…
I love you TOO… xoxox
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