Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Do you think “End Game” is about us?

Not really, no?

Why not?

I’m not a fucking pop star. Isn’t that song about her and Harry Styles?

I don’t know, but the lyrics… it relates to us.

Where’s my reputation? What reputation?

You don’t know your own reputation?

What’s my reputation?

You have at least two reputations. Probably three. I don’t know exactly but it’s the same everywhere you go.

What reputation? What are you talking about?

You’re “The Tease” — you’re the Heartbreaker. The Man Eater.

No, I’m not!!! Stop defaming my name!!!

You’ve never married.

No.

And now… you’re almost 40…

Yes, and…?

Your reputation is like those women who are so beautiful they don’t even get married for the first time until they’re in their 40s!

(LOL) You mean like the Desperate Housewife lady?

What Desperate Housewife lady?

I forgot the name of the actress. She has red hair. She was also in Melrose Place. She’s really beautiful and I remember reading in a magazine once, when she finally got married for the first time it was in her 40s…

Yes… is that the authentic you? Are you actually a red head?!

(LOL)

That would make so much sense! If you have red hair… you’re very fiery…

I have a lot of planets in Leo. And no, it doesn’t make sense. No, I don’t feel like I’m a red head. I don’t know. Where are you going with this?

You have another reputation, your second reputation, don’t you know?

No?

It’s actually amongst Korean-AUSTRALIANS… a small group of them — relatively — but it’s a niche community.

(Laughing) What?!?!

From your previous work. Your previous job as a Naturopath… they have videos of you, on stage, with speeches, Powerpoint presentations… you’re THE NATUROPATH…

(LOLOLOLOLOL) That’s a very small group, like five people?!

It’s actually growing… And it’s not only five people! It’s not only Koreans. Before the Pandemic, you were even going VIRAL within that niche. People were LIVE-STREAMING your stage presence — to India, to Thailand, to other countries from AUSTRALIA…

Well, I don’t do that anymore.

But it’s out there. They’re still circulating those videos, even in 2025…

(LOL) No fucking way.

Yes way! They’re still out there in their small niche communities. Actually it’s not even that small — they reached me, organically, through friends and family. I saw the videos. They added Korean subtitles.

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH… what did you think?

I loved them! I love everything about you! I asked someone to make them into a DVD for me to keep!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAH… You’re joking. This is all fiction.

It’s not. I have a whole DVD collection of your speeches, your presentations. Even your cooking competitions. You were the MC. It was like Master Chef. It was so fun! You’re such a good MC, too. It was such a delight to watch. And then the health presentations?! I learned so much! I feel like I just earned a Natural Health degree.

(Chuckles) Well… I don’t feel attached to any of that at all. It was a job. It was a good job. But it’s not my job anymore. Someone else can do it, and do it even better. I’m out of that contract. It’s done.

That’s how I’m going to feel when my contract is done…

Is it, though? I don’t know for sure…

You looked so PRETTY. You always do. But you really looked PRETTY on stage. Like a doll.

Yes, that was the marketing department. They designed the looks. The beauty girls did my make-up, I didn’t do my own make-up. I guess they were a mini glamour team.

They were GOOD! Like you can tell — the contouring skills.

(LOLOLOL) Yeah… contouring skills…

YOU LOOKED GOOD. You were SHINING. Like a BRIGHT STAR.

Mmmm… I wasn’t going for pretty… I just wanted to look professional.

It was professional. It was very professional… did you have to audition for that role?

Yes, I had to audition… You see it as a role?

Well, you’re on stage… you needed a DEGREE to even get that job. How many of me and my friends? Actors? Singers? Dancers? Can say that they’ve done that? If they saw the job ad — they wouldn’t be able to apply for it. You had to have YOUR DEGREE to even GET on THAT niche stage. That’s impressive!

Is it? There’s a handful of us, I’m not the only one.

Yeah — that makes you all even more Elite. You’re not like a monkey on stage, like me. You’re educated. You’re like a Doctor. You were even responsible for helping people, off-stage. You had to have consultations. Real consultations, with real responsibilities.

Yes… that’s why I burnt out… (LOL)

But you lasted as many years as you did. That’s a lot. I can’t even imagine, with what I do now — even the little fan interactions — if they came to me with their HEALTH PROBLEMS?!?! What would I say?! “Go see a Doctor” — There’s nothing to say. You had to sit there and listen to them for hours?!?!

Some consultations, yes… well… maximum an hour, but, say if you got a chronic health patient, you’re not going to just, set a timer and tell them, “Time’s up.” You still give them your undivided attention. You let the other staff know to contact the other clients waiting — she’s running late… you still sit there with them. Not really as a doctor, just let them talk… well, I guess I did that… I don’t know if the Big Bosses were too happy about the minutes that got taken up…

That’s YOUR REPUTATION. You don’t even know how many lives you’ve TOUCHED.

(Chuckling)… well, it’s all shattered now with this blog?! And all the swearing and Poems2No1… (Laughing)

(Shaking his head) No, I think they’ll be impressed with this too. One day… maybe they won’t be reading the blog, but if it’s a published book — they’ll see “Ahh! That author! We know her! She was our NATUROPATH!” And then they’ll read the book and be like, “Ohh… she had all this as well?” Like they’re gonna be impressed. You’re human. It’s not a bad thing at all.

Hmmm…

Do you want to be a Naturopath for celebrities?

NOOOOO… (Fully shaking head)

Why not?

Because… I have enough of my own problems…

Is it me?! Am I part of “your” problems?!?!

Yes, a little bit… (chuckles)… you, and Mum and Dad and everyone else… I gotta take care of the immediate family first… use my skills for domestic life…

Okay… so… no consults for celebrities — I have friends who are already interested to be your clients!

No. They can contact my friends — the ones actually set up for zoom consults. They can go to them. They don’t need me. I’m not practicing anymore, not even registered with the associations to practice — so it’s not allowed.

Oh? Hmm… okay… so you’re my personal Naturopath then… (in a baby voice) you’re my squishy little baby doll who can help me take my vitamins! (hug hug)

Yes… lucky you… (smiles)