Girl-Friends: Is there something you want to tell us?
Wifey: I don’t know… is there?
Girl-Friends: Feels like there’s something you want to tell us but you’re not able to tell us yet?
Wifey: I don’t know. Where do I even begin?
How do I explain that I was briefly in love with someone in my early 20s but then circumstances did not allow us to be together — I purposely tried to move on — I tried so hard to move on to the point where I actually did forget about him. I momentarily had a glitch in my brain — it lasted for years, and years, actually. Especially since the Pandemic, I may have had Covid Brain Fog or whatever it is.
And then, out of the blue one day — imagine you’re just a normal (genre) curious listener and you stumble upon some Tik Toks, and then you notice one of the guys in the groups is super, duper cute and good looking — and then you go down a YouTube rabbit hole learning everything about him. There’s so many interviews and stories about his background, his narrative — you get the feeling, “This is a fabrication. This is a character’s storyline… there’s wayyyyy more to this guy” and then you even start making content to amuse yourself and your niche little micro-following. To the point where you even TAG HIM as all fans DO — just FOR FUN. Just for the hell of it~! It was just FOR SHITS AND GIGGLES and then it turns out…
He’s been in love with YOU the whole time before you ever even discovered this friggin genre or anything to do with their music, their group, their characters — HE’S BEEN YOUR EX-BOYFRIEND ALL THESE YEARS… (Laughing now)
How do I explain this?!?!?! HOW?!?!?!!??!
Girl-Friends: (Laughing too)… (Shaking their heads)… That’s WILD… That’s really wild… Are you for real right now?! Is that what’s happening?!?!?!!?
Wifey: Maybe from his perspective he’s not even an Ex — the relationship never ended. He’s just been watching me from far away. Even when I tried to move on. Even when I experimented around. He loves me anyway. He was always going to wait. Just wait and see. Wait and see…
And maybe from his perspective there were years, maybe phases — of genuinely trying to move on as well — but then, recent years, amongst the mutual friends, especially, I’ve been very loud in my private social media, “I fucking give up!” Like I was so DONE. with MEN. and DATING APPS. And everything! I was just living my life.
Like the “4B Movement” or whatever it is?! I’d reached that.
The genre fan club was just a bit of fun. I wasn’t even taking it seriously. The character is YOUNG, the character isn’t even age appropriate. Technically it’s fine but morally and generally?! I’m not really about that in real life. I wasn’t about to throw myself into a huge age gap relationship — even if in fantasy to a genre pop star. All the content was for shits and giggles. That’s all that it ever was. Never to monetize. Never with any other motives. I was just amusing myself… (like a femcel!)…
And then — working in retail — there’s always quirky customers. There’s often “quirky” interactions — don’t really read too much into any of them.
But then — after — well — somehow — stuff is happening in the genre groups’ content that kind of — triggers — some — memories — faded memories.
And then you start thinking back… “Wait a minute…”
“WAIT A DAMN MINUTE….!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?”
The realisations start occurring… dots are connecting in your brain’s synapses… “It… can’t… be…?!?!?!” … … … “Can it…?!?!”
“IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING?!!? IS THAT WHO I THINK IT MIGHT BE?!?!?!?!?!!”
Girl-Friends: (Shaking their heads) NOBODY in this world has this kind of luck. NOBODY. You’re just watching Tik Toks, you fell for a celebrity and it turns out the celebrity HAS BEEN IN LOVE WITH YOU THE WHOLE TIME!!?!?!?!?!?!??!
Everyone: (Laughing together)
Girl-Friends: WHAT?!?!?! WHO GETS TO HAVE THAT KIND OF LIFE?!?!!?!? HOW IS THIS REAL AND NOT A ROM COM?!!?!?!?!?!? WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
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