Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

They stole all your toys?

Who?

Other little kids? I just had a dream… I fell asleep.

No. They didn’t steal my toys.

Oh, they didn’t even come close enough to play?

… Yes… you literally just had a dream? Now? It’s like, 11 pm in Australia?

Yes.

How early was this?

Very early… I didn’t have any products on my body. Just a little lamb in the playground.

What did you parents say to you?

Nothing. They weren’t around.

They weren’t?

No. I was with Aunty and Uncle, very early on. They dropped me off at school, their attitude was basically, “Good luck.” And they let me go out to fend for myself.

You hadn’t learned martial arts yet. Still a little lamb… it’s not even school, this is like pre-school.

Yes. Not yet, still a little lamb…

Who is Gerard?

(Stunned… staring and blinking…) HOW THE FUCK DO YOU KNOW ABOUT GERARD?!

It was in the dream I just had. In the dream, I was sort of, floating, flying around in a dark room, asking, Where is Gerard?! Where is my Soul Mate?!

This is really weird, so your dreams are not literally spelling any things out, you’re just getting clues… to ask… me?

I guess. I don’t know. I’m asking you again, who is Gerard?

(Sighing… head bowing down…) Gerard was my imaginary friend.

Why was Gerard a male name?

I don’t know. I was just a little boy, I wasn’t about to have a female friend?

But you didn’t have any concept of a Soul Mate?

No, I didn’t. That was your dream, not my reality.

Why did I just dream that?

I don’t know… Honestly, this is all new to me. Dream interpretations? It’s really different than any other conversations.

I think you were searching for a “Soul Mate” like you were searching for a friend.

Probably, yes.

Gerard was around a lot?

Yes. Because I was lonely.

That’s how you started to split… yourself… all your personalities…

Is it?

Gerard was like an older brother?

Yes.

A guide, in your life. But you had a real older brother.

But he wasn’t physically in the same country. We got split up. He was in different countries for a while. He had a very normal childhood, I didn’t.

You were already very talented. They could tell. So they wanted you to learn English and be good at it.

Maybe…

What toys did you have at home?

Whatever I wanted. That wasn’t a big deal. Aunty and Uncle… felt sorry for me. They bought me anything I would ask for at the toy store.

So what do you think that started? In your reward centre of your brain?

Hmmm… I’m not sure.

I think it taught you to fawn.

To fawn?

Yes. Look it up. Google it. It’s usually common in women — little girls — learn to do that to get what they want.

Oh?

I think that was just the start of a whole other Domino effect. I think I was Gerard.

You? Gerard? All the way from Taiwan? How?

I sometimes felt like a little boy, very early on… I often was left on my own, with the nanny… the nanny didn’t do much.

Oh… (smiling)… (realisation)…

We’ve known each other for a very, very long time…