Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

Most of the songs… have added embellishments.

Yes.

Anu’s not really living with any of those over-dramatic emotions.

No, he’s not. He’s a pretty chill guy. He stays out of trouble.

Trainwreck would’ve cheated on me.

Would he? No. He’s still me. He wouldn’t have cheated. But he probably would’ve just smoked and drank too much and died early and broke your heart that way.

Wow. That’s dark…

Anu cares about a healthy body. Anu will try to live long and healthily.

Good.

…

Anu likes to hear you sing.

… Why…?

Because, your singing voice is so pretty.

Is it…?

Yes. It’s lovely.

Would he ever want to monetize it? Mr Left Brained?

No. It’s not like that. Anu only cracks the whip on the characters, not you. He wouldn’t expect any of that from you.

Good.

Anu might be a stream.

Oh? A stream in emotional iridology?

Yes. Anu is a Stream.

Well, then we should be pretty compatible…

(Smiles)

Anu is older than the body’s age.

Is he? How much?

Maybe, about 5 years…

So he is like, 2 years older than me?

Yes. Anu, emotionally, already feels like he is well and truly in his 40s.

Oh, I see…

You prefer that numerology. You didn’t like the age gap. Three years. Superstitious.

(Sigh) I was going to tolerate it…

Anu doesn’t want you to tolerate anything. You should feel happy, proud, content in the relationship.

Yeah. I’d like that for myself, too!

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Anu doesn’t have a big house.

He doesn’t?

No. He prefers apartments.

Oh, good… I do, too.

With a nice view. A cityscape. Night time city lights.

Me too.

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A “blood curdling scream?”

Yes. One of my neighbours. Just so suddenly, as I’m typing this.

People are still partying.

Yes. They’re getting really crazy.

We’re all a little crazy.

Just a little.

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What if, the medications stop working… Anu isn’t around anymore?

What do you mean?

I don’t know. I don’t know what is the chemical concoction right now.

There’s no chemicals.

You’re not medicated?!

Nope.

How?

I told you… I have enough money, to get the best care. Which includes, close monitoring, weekly sessions, and no medications.

So… what tablets do you take?

Compounded formulas.

Okay… but it’s not “medications” –?

No. It’s amino acids. Multi-vitamins.

Oh, I see… that makes sense.

It does?

Yes. I think you needed… high dose Tryptophan or something…

It’s something similar… not exactly, but similar…

Okay.

You’re not fearing this?

Nope.

You wouldn’t have accepted this, back then.

It would’ve been hard. Yes. But now I have a whole ass GRADUATE CERTIFICATE in ADVANCED NATUROPATHIC MEDICINE. I can handle this information.

(Smiles) See? Nobody knows these things about you! You have SO MUCH INFORMATION.

(Eyerolling)… Too much… It makes me overthink sometimes.

Anu wants to kiss and hug you when you’re overthinking.

Okay… (Smiles)

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If we have kids…?

Yes…?

Well, I wouldn’t want to raise kids in an apartment.

Yes. That’s fine. Anu is fine with that.

So, if we have kids, we’ll have to move to a house.

Yes. That’s fine. It’s not a problem.

Okay…

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And…?

What if the kids… have the disease?

Anu has been doing more of his own research. Anu has many contacts, now, who are Specialists in these fields. Anu will try to get them the best medical care. The best psychological care. Anu will care for them, in a way, that he didn’t receive as a child. We didn’t receive, as a child.

Oh?

In a way, it’ll be healing. Anu can raise his kids, as if, how he wished he was raised… we were raised… Anu can give that, to the next generation.

Oh… I see…

So he doesn’t see it as a curse?

Not exactly… he’s had more mature reflections about this. He was never totally against it, even back then… but his Voice was silenced by the rest. Who felt it best to “drive you away” anyway — they were rowdy monsters. They still loved you, just the same. We all have equal intensity of love for you. (Even the characters, in a non-sexual way. Intense love for you only…) So it was a self-sabotaging behaviour.

Now it’s Anu… the Gatekeeper, the main Driver.

Yes.

I feel safe with Anu.

You do?

Yes.

He’s got good energy. It’s very calming. Very *noice*~~~

(Laughing)… The characters can come out, just for half a minute, whenever you want. Just tell Anu. He’s the Gatekeeper, the Manager, the Agent.

Okay… (Smiles) I don’t think I’ll ask about that too much.

It’s okay. He doesn’t mind.

The shell will be Anu, but then a random character just comes in, for some comedic relief.

Yes. He can cooperate with them, that way… because Anu feels very boring in himself. He’s a boring guy.

He’s not boring at all. He’s really, peaceful and zen.

He is. But the weakness in that is that he’s not very funny. He’s not good at telling jokes. He’s boring.

I’m a millennial woman in my late-30s. I’m relieved to be dating a man who’s “boring”…

(Smiles) It was always Anu.

Anu knew that he would win this race. Not Mr Incognito. Not Blonde Dude (who’s not even real)… Not any of them. Just Anu.

Okay. Nice to meet you, Anu.

(Sheepish grin) He’s still so shy…

It’s okay. Take your time…

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We’ve talked about Anu… And whoever I was talking to, said, “Nice guys finish last.”

Yes. That was the trainwreck. He was pissed that Anu won. Anu was the winner.

It was always going to take this long, wasn’t it?

Yes. Because… you weren’t ready… neither was the body… neither was the financial circumstances, citizenship circumstances — and, emotionally, neither was Anu. He’s still learning, he’s still growing, too. Even in his middle-aged, 40s Millennial man phase… he’s still learning and growing, and maturing. Just like you.

(Nodding and smiling) I can accept it.

Good. He wants you to.

He wants to buy a ring for you.

LOL… what ring?

It’s not going to be Brilliant Earth, like you imagined…

Oh?

Anu wants something else. He wants to give you something you didn’t imagine. But when you see it, you’ll love it.

Oh…? Okay… fine…

He likes to surprise you. We all have that in common. We like that element of surprise…

(Eyerolling) You know I get ANXIOUS about SURPRISES!

Not from Anu… Do you trust him?

Yes. (Nodding and smiling) I trust Anu.

(Big smiles)