Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

I counted yesterday as Day 1. Because, that was a full hour in the car.

Today, I gave myself permission to do 11 minutes. Perhaps, I was very ambitious with my intentions in my writing yesterday… perhaps even in the first 40 days, I’ll stick with 11 minutes.

I couldn’t get my breath. I felt my lungs are not normal — I’m definitely fighting an infection. It’s something from working in retail.

But I got through it. I really wouldn’t have remembered the “melody” or tune? Is it called a tune? I wouldn’t have remembered how to chant it if I didn’t have my voice memo.

I did the 11 minutes. Then, I felt like going into “Ego Eradictor” — I set the timer for 3 minutes, but I lasted 2.

I allowed myself to stop at 2.

Me, in my 20s? PUSH IT THROUGH. Get to the 3.

No. Not today. I’m being gentle with myself now.

…

I knew that was enough. Because I have work later, I don’t want to over-exert myself.

Just a mini practice.

I winded down with some light stretching.

Then I was in Shavasana (corpse pose)… a peculiar thing happened… Taylor Swift’s “Call it what you want, call it what you want…” a warm feeling in my heart… was my mind wandering off to… you?

This has never happened before during my practice.

I placed my palms over my heart. It’s like a little transmitter. The vibrations are pulsating out… I have never observed this in myself before.

I know I put up a protective barrier. I know that this room, this space is sacred. You’re not here. You’re not allowed in. During this time and space. For the meditative practices, you’re not here.

So why is my heart doing that?

My heart wants to send the love vibrations out to you. Without your influence. Without your input.

It’s not sexual. It was all heart. Just my little pulsating beats of love.