Virgo Sun Pisces Moon

I want to get purple contact lenses. Maybe also a set of green.

I have never worn contacts before. I’ve always been afraid of poking my eyes with my fingers… but I’m a grown woman now. I think I can muster up the courage.

And sometimes at work, it does feel like glasses are getting fogged up and too sweaty. It would be nice to have the option — “Oh, I’m going to wear contacts today” — rather than always only having glasses.

So, I’ll need to make an appointment with the Optometrist… no, it’s not something that I’ll need you to pay for. I can get my own contact lenses for myself, thanks.

It’s not that expensive in Australia with private health… (I think? I actually don’t know for sure…)

Anyway.

I was thinking of getting a set of purple and a set of green, and then doing an odd-eyes look. So maybe purple on the left, green on the right, or vice versa. Just having fun with it.

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I want to get a pink wig. I think?

I think I want this. I’m not going to wear it at work. That’s a waste of resources.

But occasionally going out, for a bit of a fun look, I think I want pink hair but I don’t want to dye my hair.

Also, I’ve stayed away from wigs because I found they had a wretched smell. Like plastic.

So, how would I get a wig that doesn’t smell?

Should I get a blonde human hair wig and dye it pink?

It’s not something that I would do… at my mother’s house… (LOL)…

If I stayed with you? Sure. If you have enough room for me to keep some wig stands and display some wigs in the closet. Keep them there, dust free and clean. I think I could have fun with it.

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I want to get regular facials and massages… that one, you can pay for me. Because, it’s pampering… I’m like a high class prostitute and you’re paying for this.

Once a month would be good. I’m not gonna get too greedy.

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I’m not one to fuss about manicures, pedicures, or waxing… and I don’t think you are, either.

I probably would love to have better skincare products, which I haven’t indulged in lately.

When I was working the corporate job, I was like Mecca Beauty Loop Level 2? (Level 4 is the highest)… Now I’m nothing. I haven’t bought from Mecca for ages.

You can pay for that, if you’re happy to. If you want to keep your doll’s skin nice and supple and glowing.

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I’m reluctant to get any plastic surgery… I won’t say “never”… but I am reluctant to do it.

I don’t think it’s happening in 2025… I feel like, inevitably, maybe when I’ve reached my mid-40s? Maybe I can’t win that fight against gravity.

Maybe small, subtle procedures, I’m not one to do anything drastic. You know that. As little as possible. Minimal interventions.

I know you’re not bothered by any of it, and you’ll keep saying that every day. But I’m the one who has to look in the mirror. I’m the one making these comparisons. Yes, some days will be triggering more than others. I can foresee, by mid-40s, I’ll start feeling sorry for myself in some ways… I will start feeling this need… At least, maybe make an appointment, hear out what a consultant suggests… I know me, and I know that’s happening.

I still have my confidence right now in my 30s…

I know you’re going to say, “Don’t do anything! You’re perfect naturally!!!”

And still, I’m going to go through with it, eventually… and you’ll still love me.

It might feel a bit weird… like there’s more plastic in between…

You changed already. I can’t change that reality.

I still love you… however you wish to be.

I know you’re going to say, “No. This is the problem with energies merging. I don’t want you to turn into me.”

Okay, fine. If you want me natural, it’s going to cost more money. It’s actually more expensive to be 100% natural organic, pure skincare and massages to maintain natural beauty.

Do you have that money?!

(LOL)

It takes so much more conscientious work. I’ll do the micro-needling. Lymphatic drainage massages. Infra-red…? Whatevers… Anything that is… what is the word… non-invasive. Micro-needling is borderline, technically, but you know what I mean.

No sedation needed. No anaesthesiologists involved.

If you’re that adamant that you don’t want me anywhere near that industry.

You want your free-range, organic, antibiotic-free… natural beauty.

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It’s not that organic, sometimes I eat KFC… (glaring)…

And I know you’re gonna say, “If KFC is your only vice, I can live with that.”

I do feel like KFC is my biggest vice… (LOL!!!) ^0^

I’m a little bit embarrassed. Sometimes I’m so hungry after work I just go to the drive-thru to buy some…

Is it an addiction?! (LOL)

Okay. New Year’s Resolution — can I make it? Trying not to eat KFC in 2025???

I can go back in 2026… I just want to try… 365 days… no KFC?!

No, I can’t promise it. It’s just a good “idea” but I can’t go to that extreme. I can eat LESS of it. That I can promise myself. It won’t be as frequent. That’s totally doable. 365 days is just not happening… it’s going a bit neurotic with it.

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Okay, what else in 2025?

I keep saying yoga. Perhaps, even ONE CLASS PER QUARTER is more of a realistic strategy. So that is attending at least ONE CLASS every 3 months. That’s doable. I can just get a casual pass. I can mark that day in a calendar. When there’s no other work obligations, no classes, no friends or family obligations — not even time with you. One day every 3 months. I can attend a yoga class, just to “keep in touch” with yoga me.

Let me keep that relationship.

And it’ll be good… if I’m missing you anyway, to fill up some time with a yoga class.

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I think that’s it for 2025? I can’t think of anything else… there’s lot of other little things around the house that’s a big to-do list for me and my family.

I’ve got a car maintenance to-do list as well…

All very boring, mundane things.

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Maybe… I could play piano more?

Get back into it in 2025…

Nourishing my creativity.

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I think I need to de-clutter a lot at my mother’s house…

A lot of this is happening when she gets back.

Cos I need to ask her, “Am I allowed to throw this away?”

Yes, it’s her house. I need her permission.

Technically I can just FaceTime her and ask but it’s just… I don’t have time right now anyway, might as well wait for her to get back and ask her in person while I’m de-cluttering.

There is, as the years pass on, more and more that she’s willing to let go.

She is evolving, too. In a good way. She’s also maturing…

I don’t know what my parents are really thinking about these days, honestly I haven’t asked them. I know what they’re doing. They send pictures all the time. They’re having a blast in Taiwan.

They have their friends, they have their routines…

They’re both coming back to Australia if China invades Taiwan.

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Anyway…

I need to go wrap some Christmas presents…